Eileen-the miss.

Movie day with him.♥

2011-12-29T21:00:00.000+08:00

Our shirt.♥

Hasn't met him since my last paper, for nearly a month.
Short updates, just to say I finally get to meet him up and we went for movie.
And boyfie just got his phone, finally, ;D thanks to his papa.

Hubby.♥

Us.♥

28th December 2011.

2011-12-28T22:55:00.001+08:00

28th should be our day, and it's December, a holiday month.
Couples would have celebrated their day together during holidays.
But we missed twice.
The same day and same month last year, we're both far apart, we didn't greet each other.
This year, I'm still waiting for it, I guess I won't be having any greetings though.

~~Happy One Year and Three Months Anniversary Eileen.♥~~

;(

2011-12-26T01:40:00.000+08:00

Babe, seriously, what happened to us?
It feels like we don't know each other anymore. ='(

Samsung Galaxy SII. ♥

2011-11-11T22:13:00.000+08:00

And in the afternoon, I had my lunch with mummy.

Then, finally my phone arrived, Samsung Galaxy SII in white.

I got my phone by signing up Digi plan, it comes with a complete box, and was pack neatly and savely.

Was satisfied overall, except of the keep delaying arrival of the phone.
Samsung Galaxy SII White:

Elegant enough. ♥

Tall and Slim, xD

And now available in Pink, which is feminine.

Talking about this phone, I actually don't know much about it.

I've been spending the whole afternoon discovering, haha.

Been downloading apps, transferring contact, photos and songs.

The camera quite disappoint me, took photos with it, but it comes out a lil more yellowish.

And I tried transferring photos from my computer, the photos looks different colour in the phone.

About transferring, the bluetooth does not support.

It can only transfer stuff from computer to phone by bluetooth.

But if I wanted to transfer from my phone to the computer, I would have to use the USB cable.

Screen shot was fun!

He was the first. ♥

Screen Wallpaper.

Boyfie date me this special day, but I couldn't make it.

Mummy don't let me, cause I'm having severe cough and fever.

And mummy complained, "Why are you ill when SPM's around the corner?"

What should I say, get well soon, ;D

11-11-11, Our 410th day.

Iheartsyou boy. ♥

11th of November 2011.

2011-11-11T21:29:00.000+08:00

This great day, was said to be a special day, where triple eleven was met together.

Today, I ended my life as a secondary school student in Kian Kok Middle School.

They did a simple ending school ceremony which our graduation day had done earlier.

After the ceremony, everyone went to have their report card.

But no one seemed to bother about that.

I took my report card, and didn't even look into it.

Despite, I'm having fun taking photos with my friends, most of us are leaving.

By the way, we still meet during SPM. >_<

Photos section:

Neighbours in class.

My long lost brother, same year same month same day. ;)

Pauline.

Dear Sun.

Michell bii.

Lastly, My four years sister, Angela ling! ♥

07252, 蔡日玲, Eileen Chai Tze Leen. ♥

Eileen Chai Tze Leen has ended her secondary school life! x)

Movie night with hubby. ♥

2011-10-23T00:30:00.000+08:00

22nd of October, 390 days. ♥

Real Steel.

Boyfie took me for movie- Real Steel, with one of his friend.

He rushed all the way from the airport to pick me up.

Rushed back to his house, waited him to get himself cleaned.

And then there we went to the cinema.

What a troublesome journey, but no choice. ;P

His friends had been waiting for us, haha, slowpoke.

The movie's talking about some kind of err, robot stuff.

And he broke my record, I never watch this kind of movie before.

Sort of, still okay lha, ;)

We went home after that,

And I realize no matter I had my key or not, mummy still will be waiting for me to be home.

How sweet was that, but that too, makes me feel guilty of being home late. ;(

Just a short post about it.

Thanks boyfie. ♥

One Year Anniversary. ♥

2011-09-28T17:30:00.000+08:00

28th of September 2011, 366 days.
It's our 366 days, our One Year Anniversary!
It was suppose to be 365 days, and I don't know where the extra one day come from, nevermind. x)
I did nothing special, just bought a black tee for both of us.
And I wrote a card for him, yea, I wrote, its all words in the card, nothing else. ;D
~~Buu, he seemed so surprise i bought him something, =X~~

Inside.

Front Page.

Our Couple Tee.♥

Happy One Year Anniversary Hubby!
Iheartsyou. ♥

360 days. ♥

2011-09-22T20:17:00.000+08:00

22nd September 2011, 360 days. ♥

ihy hubby. ♥

Lumix LX5

2011-09-06T21:06:00.002+08:00

Get Me One! ♥

More Than Words by Westlife.

2011-09-03T17:29:00.004+08:00

MORE THAN WORDS - Westlife.

Saying I love you

Is the words I want to hear from you

It's not that I want you

Not to say, but if you only knew

How easy it would be to show me how you feel

More than words is all you have to do to make it real

Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me

Cause I'd already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two

More than words to show you feel

That your love for me is real

What would you say if I took those words away

Then you couldn't make things new

Just by saying I love you

Now I've tried to talk to you and make you understand

All you have to do is close your eyes

And just reach out your hand and touch me

Hold me close don't ever let me go

More than words is all I ever needed you to show

Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me

Cause i already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two

More than word to show you feel

That your love for me is real

What would you say if I took those words away

Then you couldn't make things new

Just by saying I love you

All Time Favourite! ♥

Final Destination 5.

2011-09-01T20:11:00.000+08:00

I meet her up at Ah Lok after school, we had our lunch there.
And here we go for our movie. weehh~
We went to One Borneo for movie, cause Suria don't have the 2D one.
Final Destination 5.

I watched Final Destination 1 to 4, and so I wanted to watch the Final Destination 5.
Final Destination 1 to 4 is still okay to me, but Final Destination 5 was lil freaky.
We took the middle sit, which beside us was groups of couple and we was like 'Is this a couple's roll', haha
Whenever there's scary scene coming, we closed one side of our eye, with jacket, oppss.
The other part was quite okay, but the Eye Surgery part really freak me out.
The whole part when the doctor try to apply something on her eyes, I closed my eyes till I saw the girl's eye ball was crashed by car. yucks!
Some movie scenes.

Yam-cha session after that, didn't took photos, haha.

That's all for the first day of September. =')

National Day, date with hubby.♥

2011-08-31T18:46:00.000+08:00

Finally I've a day holiday today, cause it's National Day. ;D
Actually we're suppose to be having a week holiday due to Hari Raya.
But unfortunately, examiners are having holiday tuition classes, which really pissed us off.

Back to the topic, boyfie took me for movie.

Spy Kids - All The Time In The World.

We didn't watch the 3D instead we had 2D one.

Since it's called 4D, it means you can feel what they do in the movie, like actions.

But despite of that, we're given an Aroma-Scope with numbers on it.

All you need to do is to scratch on the number which was shown on the screen.

Here's the Aroma Scope.

Example, you need to scratch number 4.

We didn't even cared about the Aroma-Scope thinggy, haha.

But I think this Aroma-Scope attracted children's attention

There's nothing special about others.

It's doesn't seemed so interesting to us, I guess. =P

That's all about the movie.

Went home after the movie, and National Day is full of people.

I thought they should be visiting people's house,

But nowadays tend was going to the shopping, ;)

It's another day out tomorrow, with my babe.

Movie with hubby.♥

2011-07-22T23:00:00.000+08:00

22nd of July, our number our date. x)

Harry Potter And The Deathly Hallows Part II.

Boyfie took me for movie tonight.

Harry Potter And The Deathly Hallows Part II.

The movie was quiet nice.

We went for his dinner after the movie.

Boyfie didn't feed his stomach before we went out.

Poor little stomach. ;P

Hubby send me home after that.

And mummy called from KL.

Mummy's in KL for the 4th day.

She knew I went out with my boyfie cause she can't get me. *Oppss. =X

Mummy went to KL to take care of my aunt.

She suffering in kind of medication, not good to say here.

I hope she'll recover soon.

Once mummy's there, I'm like being the maid at home.

Like it's so hard to put my time in study and house chores.

Cause when I came back, and there's dozen of shirts waiting to be washed, to be fold and iron.

Dishes to be washed and the house to be clean.

Brother staying at home was like, urgh, being a k i n g.

He woke up at 2 or 3 in the afternoon, and went out at night, slept at 3 midnight.

Yeah, he promised to look after the house, and I was the only on doing that.

I don't know when would mummy be back, but once she's back she need to accompany brother to University, and I was also alone at home, no difference.

Although mummy's in KL, we did contact each other like everyday.

I would text her about my day, and she replied me about hers too.

And she would call me at night, just to find someone to talk.

We're more like friends I guess.

Awaits mummy to be back,

I loved and miss you.♥

Chinese New Year.

2011-02-09T20:41:00.000+08:00

2nd of February 2011,

It's the so called chu xi today,

what people did today is having themselves in their new outfit,

and having a great Reunion Dinner with the family. ♥

Well, I had my Reunion Dinner at I-forgot-what-name-of-the-hotel. xD

We had a great night, and all of us felt that my grandma really turned old.

Seemed like time pass so fast, yeah, time won't wait for you.

You know when elderlies act like a child complaining for this and that,

It's actually they need someone's attention.

Like a child crying all day to be cuddling in his mummy's.

Reunion Dinner.

3rd of February 2011,

First day of Chinese New Year,

I thought I could wake early today, cause I sleep quite late last night.

But then, it was just my thought.

Papa woke me up early cause they wanted to use the living room,

So I woke up, and sat myself at the living room for the whole day,

Texting, online-ing and watching tv.

Imagine you spend your first day of chinese new year aimlessly. urgh~

I should be accustomed to it, yeah, I did.

4th of February 2011,

Second day of Chinese New Year,

Everyone woke up early, cause we're going out for breakfast.

And yeah, it's not breakfast at home!

I ate a little, cause it's too early for me to have breakfast, haha.

They seemed to be enjoying the food, so I just wait for them to finish.

After breakfast, they said they wanted to bring grandma for a walk at the mall.

We decided to go Pavilion, Pavilion is love.

Bring grandma to survey around on a wheelchair, not convenient for her to walk so much.

A while later, they request to go back home, they don't like crowded.

And well, mummy and I was complaining about so bored being at home, so we stayed back at Pavilion and shop around.

I wonder where those family go when the mall is fulled of couples. haha

Guess what, there's many shop for me and mummy, but we're just side-seeing.

And I finally found my Superman Tee ♥, but I'm not buying it, it's so expensive. ='(

I asked mummy to go in the shop, then when we leave she said "Enough at looking at the shirt?"

Cause everytime I passed by Superman shop I would go in and have a look at the Superman Tee.

And left with full of Superman Tee's image in my mind. ;(

Outfit of the day, My New Converse. ♥

Coffee Bean, Pavilion.

5th February 2011,

Third day of Chinese New Year,

We went to Japanese Restaurant for our dinner.

We booked a room for 20 and enjoyed our dinner with cousins who just arrived here.

8th February 2011,

Back to kk day.

People had start schooling for two days, and I'm still at KL online-ing whole day.

Haha, and I only told boyfie and few of them, so others thought I'm missing.

I keep receiving calls or text like, where've you been, are you okay, etc.

I replied like seriously and I was laughing in front of the phone, so cute of'em. x))

Hello KK. ;D ♥

Hello to KL!

2011-01-31T23:50:00.000+08:00

Prepared! And here we go to the Airport. =D

I had my own style. ;D

Hello to KL again, because it's Chinese New Year!

And yeah, KL life was, urgh~

Wake up early in the morning, *people wanted to use the living room.

Sitting on the sofa, fall asleep again sometimes. x]

Brunch,

Sit aside, either tv or lappy,

Dinner,

Tv or lappy again,

Wait for people to go to sleep, *clears the living room.

My bed time.

One word, ~~unexcited!~~

How I wish to go back to kk,

Could meet my friends during Chinese New Year,

Or maybe hang out with them, or to their house.

Here was like urgh, ~~bored!~~

And sadly, that day grandma asked mummy one question when I was on the lappy.

*pointed at me and asked, who is this orh?

this one, Eileen lha, your granddaughter wor.

yea meh? I don't remember orh.

Everytime I came here, they didn't realize my appearance, I still can accept.

This time was worst, she don't even know who am I.

~~How sad.~~

Nevermind then, I'll be good with my baby lappy and baby boy.

They loved me. x) ♥

Simple smile would do. =')

05-01-2011. ♥

2011-01-05T18:30:00.000+08:00

Happy 100 days!
I've nothing much to say.
Thank you so much for these days.
ihy hubby! ♥

School Reopen!

2011-01-03T17:33:00.000+08:00

oh my~~~~~~~~~ gosh!
I can't believe it's school today.

Wake up with panda eyes in the morning.

And idk why, my skin is effing worst this few days.

I feel so bad. ='(

First day of school, and bear is our form teacher this year.

She let us sit with friends, oh yeah, and this month I sit with Michell.

aihh, the first day of Senior 2 life, s u f f e r.

Stayed back at school till 5pm for meeting, oppss.

And homeworks are waiting for me.

Senior 2 is seriously not e a s y!

I'm already so stress right now, so worry about studies.

Classmates are genius aye, i'm just some kind of no IQ person in that class. =[

Oh ya, finally I met my man!

Macam ages didn't meet, xD nope lha, school holiday only mha..haha

This year's Senior 2, all together add oil for SPM!

Get good results! muahahahaha~

Only Girl (In The World) is love! ♥

2010-12-08T15:37:00.007+08:00

Only Girl ( In The World) by Rihanna

Here's the lyrics:

La la la la
La la la la
La la la la

[VERSE 1]
I want you to love me, like I’m a hot pie
Keep thinkin’ of me, doin’ what you like
So boy forget about the world cuz it’s gon’ be me and you tonight
I wanna make your bed for ya, then imma make you swallow your pride

[CHORUS]
Want you to make me feel like I’m the only girl in the world
Like I’m the only one that you’ll ever love
Like I’m the only one who knows your heart
Only girl in the world…
Like I’m the only one that’s in command
Cuz I’m the only one who understands how to make you feel like a man
Want you to make me feel like I’m the only girl in the world
Like I’m the only one that you’ll ever love
Like I’m the only one who knows your heart
Only one…

[VERSE 2]
Want you to take me like a thief in the night
Hold me like a pillow, make me feel right
Baby I’ll tell you all my secrets that I’m keepin’, you can come inside
And when you enter, you ain’t leavin’, be my prisoner for the night

[CHORUS]
Want you to make me feel like I’m the only girl in the world
Like I’m the only one that you’ll ever love
Like I’m the only one who knows your heart
Only girl in the world…
Like I’m the only one that’s in command
Cuz I’m the only one who understands, like I’m the only one who knows your heart, only one…

[BRIDGE]
Take me for a ride
Oh baby, take me high
Let me make you first
Oh make it last all night
Take me for a ride
Oh baby, take me high
Let me make you first
Make it last all night

[CHORUS]
Want you to make me feel like I’m the only girl in the world
Like I’m the only one that you’ll ever love
Like I’m the only one who knows your heart
Only girl in the world…
Like I’m the only one that’s in command
Cuz I’m the only one who understands how to make you feel like a man
Only girl in the world…
Girl in the world…
Only girl in the world…
Girl in the world…

I kept searching for new songs,

And I found this when i'm on friend's car.

This song is love!

I like the lyrics, and the feel Rihanna sang out.

Just describe how much she wants to be his.

Enjoy! ♥

28-11-2010. ♥

2010-11-28T20:27:00.003+08:00

Time passed so fast. It's our day again.

I sent him a funny MMS 12am sharp!

But guess what, the line problem or the MMS is too big.

He received only at 12.40am. =_=

Nevermind, cause at the same time i'm chatting with him in fb.

So I greeted him there too. hehe.

hmmm, we chat till around 2 something, then off to bed.

I woke up early in the morning to prepare for Ah Mei's birthday.

We had a celebration with her at the school canteen.

We cheated her that there's no present or cake, only those food canteen uncle prepared.

Then she was like so desperate.

Me, Candy, Celine and Yaya went to the kitchen.

And we walked out with cakes, presents and birthday card on our hands.

While singing birthday song to her. She blow candles and cut cakes.

Then I cut into pieces and give it to everyone.

And something awkward happened, I don't wanna talk about it. =X

Here, let photos do the talking.

Birthday cake.

Preparing in the kitchen.

Polo handbag as her birthday present.

Hope you like it.

One page of the birthday card.

I made it! ♥

Happy Birthday Ah Mei!

Hope you have a great day.

And forever 18! xD

Happy 2nd Month Anniversary hubby!

loves. ♥

Papa going to India. ='(

2010-11-19T21:21:00.000+08:00

Around 4pm sent papa to airport.

He's going to India for almost a month.

What a long trip.

Would be missing him. *sigh.

Hug him tight before going in the departure hall.

Watched "Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows" today!

Brother said he wanted to watch and mummy straight away went to the cinema.

I'm only with my baby boy that time, without wallet, or jacket.

And it's so freaking cold inside the cinema.

Now I realize my jacket made me feel safe in the cinema. phew~

The movie's still okay for me, a lil bored, cause it's like 2 hours and 3o minutes chilling inside the cinema. wtf!

Keep sneezing when I get home. =X

Okay, this post is without main point, I know. =_=

I just wanna make a remembrance about my dad going to India.

Still many days to go, hope he'll be back quick!

I love you papa. ♥

Brother's Graduation Day.

2010-11-12T21:07:00.004+08:00

12th of November 2010,

The last day of school and Graduation day.

Went to school 'bout 7 something, but the graduation ceremony started only at 9 something.

The whole two hours, I'm like sleeping in the hall.

As I can't sit with my friends, no one can talk to me.

So yeah, I'm resting. So freaking cold somemore!

This year's Graduation Ceremony is so called "simple", but bored.

No other programs, just giving out prizes and graduation certificate.

My brother was like cold blooded ehh, his tears didn't even fall.

And my dai sou also, both keep smiling saja. >_<

Perfect match mha. xD *I hope they didn't saw this. x))

The last year for my brother to stay at the same school with me.

Even we didn't met at school, but still a little bit sad.

Don't know he'll continue his studies onot,

If yesh, I wish he study around kk, no leaving please!

I can't think of how hard i'll cry if he leave here and go for further studies.

Even if we're not so close but seriously, i love him mha.

He still didn't decide yet, but I hope he stay.

Can't imagine how my life could be if he left.

I might be alone at home, he's my ONLY BROTHER.

I have no other siblings, yes, only the TWO of us at home.

The house could be so quiet, cause he's the one who make noises around.

No quarrels with me.

No fighting with me.

No stupid jokes for me to laugh around.

No cute face for me to call him my younger brother instead of elder brother.

No people calling me 'mom' instead of sister cause I'd take care of him sometimes.

No choosing clothes for him during CNY.

No helping him to make over for parties.

No scolding me when I touched his hands. *He don't let me touch him.

No dancing show for me to judge.

I think it's hard for me to take it if he leave.

But someday, he need to go for studies or work outside.

Maybe i'll cry for someday and then i'm okay.

Brother, you finally graduated, you finished your high school.

And we don't know what's your plan next.

But no matter how, I support your decision.

Dai gor zai lho!

10th Month Anniversary to my baby boy!

2010-11-02T17:18:00.007+08:00

Not willing to wake up again this morning.

But I got text from you. teehee. =P

Hope I can sleep till I feel like waking up.

Today's class was super duper b o r i n g!

7.30 in the morning, and our class are about to have talk.

I was like "what? A talk in this early morning? please, i'm so sleepy, and I wanna go and find my babes next class."

Well, that's just my thoughts.

A talk about the Truth Of Life, Love And Sex.

FMI, this talk is gonna continue for 3 days. urgh, so pissed off.

But there's an interesting part about this talk. I'm gonna share here.

There's a man named, Nicholas James Vujicic, a man without limbs.

Here's a video to share. And below is what he said in the video.

There was times when I sort of look at my life, and thinking that I can't do this and I can't do that. And you keep on concentrating on the things you wish to have, or the things that you wish didn't have. And you sort of forget what you do have. And it's no point I believe in my life where I wish I am this, I wish I am that, but wishes won't help. From what I've seen in life is just a couple key principles and the first thing I've seen is to be thankful. It's hard to be thankful man, I tell you when I was 8 years old. I sort of sum up my life in full, I never gonna get marry, I'm not gonna have a job, I'm not gonna have a life of purpose. What kind of husband am I gonna be if I can't even hold my wife's hand?

It's a lie to think that you're not good enough!

It's a lie to think that you're not worth anything!

I love life, you know so many people come and say "How come you smile so much". And I am like...well... " It's a long story, but it's very simple to say in time." You see it's very hard to smile sometimes when life through things that you don't know or you don't understand. And you don't know if you gonna get through it. You know you go through your storms in life and you don't know how long the storms gonna be. And today I want to share with you some principles that I've learned in my life that you can use in yours.

Being patient is beautiful I tell you it's the hardest thing.

But I realize I may not have hands to hold my wife's hand, but when the time comes, I'll be able to hold her heart, I don't need hands to hold her heart.

You know it's scary to know how many girl's have eating disorders. It's scary to know that how many people are just angry at life because of their situation at home and angry at others. It's scary.

Tonight how many people actually feel like they're worth nothing. Every single girl right here right now, I want you to know that you're beautiful, you're glorious, just the way you are, and the boys, you are the man!

- Nick Vujicic

What's in your mind after you watched this video?

A man without limbs, he's giving talks around, having his own activities, without giving up his life.

People might met difficulties in life and would want to give up living.

People might complain about my eyes or my nose are not perfect.

People might said I didn't hold his/her hand for quiet long time.

People might complain about I'm not having this and thats.

But look at this guy,

He's born without limbs, who's he gonna blame? his parents?

His parents don't know he'll be born without limbs.

Some of us might be not having perfect nose or eyes, it seemed to be a big matter for us.

But, he's without limbs, he's not even upset.

He can't even hold people hand, since he was young, he can't even feel them.

Be thankful that you're born with complete body.

Even if it's not a perfect one, but you're complete.

And about the title,

Happy 10th Month Anniversary to my baby boy- My Phone! ♥

Don't worry, I'll protect you well. x)

1st of November.

2010-11-01T20:21:00.007+08:00

Late for school this morning,

luckily no need to stand outside for assembly.

No seats for us anymore, no choice, have to sit in front.

The principal start giving speech in front,

Angela, Weng Sum and I are talking from the assembly start till it ends. xD

Macam many to talk about, but we're just talking craps and laughing there. haha

After the assembly, went back to class, no teacher in the class.

Then my classmates beside me suddenly mentioned that today its 1st of November.

Only I realized it's a whole new month. LOL, yea, i'm a bit late. haha.

The whole school section was just sleeping and talking at school.

No point at all. Sleeping in school was a w e s o m e! like I can sleep well. x))

Practice at school in the afternoon, for the performance on 7th November.

Add oil members, we can do it! ♥

Uhhm, yeah, talked with jie just now. I didn't feel like telling at first, but she seemed to know what happened to me, and she asked anything happened to you and I tell her a bit, lastly, the whole story about me and another her. I hope you'll understand that I didn't purposely do that. But you seemed to be mad about that. I've no choice, but to have communication with everyone, I'm not gonna continue living in that surroundings if I just can't communicate with others. I thought a lot of how am I gonna put those puzzles back, they're not missing, but they're neither half or broke in one corner. Broken pieces just can't stick together to complete a puzzle. Well, till then, not convenient to talk more. We'll be fine at last, no worries. I'm alright. =')

28-10-2010. ♥

2010-10-28T23:01:00.009+08:00

Special day today. =)

Chatted with him since last night.

And passed our One Month Anniversary through phone. 12am sharp!

Haha, quiet funny aye?

Well, nothing special about today.

I'm just staying at home,

He's going to school for stuff.

Time passed so fast,

We've been through for one month,

Well, I just have to say I'll appreciate you.

UEC holiday almost ended,

School reopen again, can't think of anything to do at school.

Besides, sleeping during classes.

Then it's gossiping during recess. Fun!

Happy One Month Anniversary!

ihy. ♥

TeaAvenue.

2010-10-27T00:37:00.004+08:00

First day of practice today.

Teachers arrived airport at afternoon.

The whole morning section we're having our self-practice.

Then teacher arrive, started group practice for basics.

Okay, it's nothing more to talk about practice.

At night, went out with muii.

Discuss something at TeaAvenue. New place, Quiet nice, it's GREEN!

We're ordered drinks and talk talk talk.

And our day passed like that.

My Peach Green Tea, Her Lychee Green Tea.

Second try, her strawberry,

my dont-know-what-red-bean-milky-tea.

Like nothing interesting huh my holiday?

Yea, kind of, b-o-r-i-n-g.

No dates. urgh.

4 days to go. ♥

20-10-2010 (愛你 Eileen, 愛你 Eileen) ♥

2010-10-20T16:14:00.007+08:00

It's a nice morning with your text to wake me. =)

Hmmm, as usual, went to school, like nothing to do at school.

Went to the school hall to watch our school's singing competition.

Congratulations to those participants who get the prize.

You all did sing well!

Well, it's 20-10-2010 today!

Like what's so special about today?

Seriously, like, idk also.

People said everything is nice today.

At the same time, something came into my mind!

I thought of my translating my name from today's date.

And I did it like this.

愛你 Eileen, 愛你 Eileen

While 20 = 愛你, 10 = Eileen.

Awww~ I have no idea how I figure this out.

Once I've figure this out, I kept forcing people to greet me today.

They're like "lol, okay then, "

Then I'm happy! =P

Haha, I know I'm "perasan" to change date into my name.

But it just made my day!

Don't care about me, I'm still no high~

I have no idea why I'm so hyper today. =P

Okay, cut the craps.

I'm just talking nonsense. >_<

Wish everyone's happy today!

Happy 20-10-2010! ♥

8 days to go.

ily. ♥

Last day of Exam, Happy day starts. ♥

2010-10-16T23:30:00.000+08:00

Last day of Exam.

Our outfit today. The Blacks. ♥

We're having our last day of examination.

And it's the toughest one, Chemistry.

Well, skip about the exam thinggy.

After exam, hang out with my muii.

And yea, as you can see, we wore the same colour!

*this time without planning! =') ♥

It's been long time since I last hang out with my friends.

We went to Suria, straight away go to the cinema to check for tickets.

Then we bought 3.10pm movie tickets.--The Child's Eye.

It's just 1pm something when we buy tickets,

So, we went to Pizza Hut for our lunch.

We ordered meals, and keep talking while eating.

Actually we're waiting for the time to pass,

We talked about many stuff, like we didn't met each other for so long.

That's real. Spilled out everything in our heart, feels better then.

Finally, movie time.

The movie's still okay, but the so called ghost, was so freaking scary lha!

The ghost's face was like so weird, and she have freaking white eyeballs.

Imagine it was in 3D, exciting huh?

The Child's Eye (3D).

Drinking her coke!

Finished our movie, way to Wisma!

Went to Wisma, walk here walk there.

Keep go kacau people's shirt there. Two Sopoh.

Tired liao, then go to KFC for our dinner!

Two meals of fast food,

I'm gonna be FAT today!

Enjoying her Finger-Lickin'-Good-Drumstick!

First try.

Second try.

After dinner, called up my mum to pick me up.

She followed me back to my home.

Then she online with my comp when i'm bathing.

Uploads photos and so on.

Like her house, =P Nevermind lha, sisters mha.

Peace VoV

Love! ♥

We smile the same way. =')

It's a great day today,

We shared so much to each other,

Although we seldom went out together or meet at school.

We're not feeling awkward when we meet.

Once we meet, then non-stop talking.

That's what we call sisters!

End of September. ♥

2010-09-30T19:02:00.004+08:00

End of September.♥

It's 30th of September.

And today, September ends.

My September is simply great.

By the way,

My dreams come true.

The bad and good ones.

The bad one, was effing sad for me.

I'm really transparent for'em.

Like yea, I'm just beside,

But they sort of talking to people far away,

And not even a simple "Hello."

Nevermind,

I would let go stuff that didn't like me.

Well, if you guys really do hate me,

Keep it up on ignoring me,

By this, you'll succeed in breaking friendship with me.

Cause, I'll let go automatically.

Don't blame me on letting go,

I really can't stand anymore.

Although something gone wrong,

But I'm fine to pissed them off.

I never expect it would be that nice.

I'll be fine,

Everything would be fine.

Just bring along the smile.

And no one can take me down.

錯的人-蕭亞軒

2010-09-25T23:04:00.006+08:00

錯的人-蕭亞軒

明知道愛情並不牢靠

但是我還是拼命往裏跳

明知道再走可能是堅牢

但是我還是相信只是煎熬

朋友都勸我不要不要

不要拿自己的幸福開玩笑

但是做人已經那麽累

假惺惺的想要逃

在愛裏連真心都不能給

這才真的真正的可笑

愛得太真太容易讓自己犧牲

太容易讓自己沉淪

太容易不顧一切滿是傷痕

我太笨明知道你是錯的人

明知道這不是緣分

但我還是奮不顧身

明知道愛情並不牢靠

但是我還是拼命往裏跳

明知道再走可能是堅牢

但是我還是相信只是煎熬

朋友都勸我不要不要

不要拿自己的幸福開玩笑

但是做人已經那麽累

假惺惺的想要逃

在愛裏連真心都不能給

這才真的真正的可笑

愛得太真太容易讓自己犧牲

太容易讓自己沉淪

太容易不顧一切滿是傷痕

我太笨明知道你是錯的人

明知道這不是緣分

但我還是奮不顧身

可能在愛裏面這樣算笨

可能永遠沒有所謂永恒

但是我不願放棄這裡面的一點點可能

寧願笨也不想要悔恨

愛得太真太容易讓自己犧牲

太容易讓自己沉淪

太容易不顧一切滿是傷痕

我太笨明知道你是錯的人

明知道這不是緣分

但我還是奮不顧身

我太笨明知道你是錯的人

明知道這不是緣分

但我相信有點可能

Elva's new song.

This song is so nice,

Especially the lyrics,

I think it's very meaningful.

September story. ♥

2010-09-23T22:12:00.004+08:00

It's 23rd of September.

Few days more, and September ends.

This morning, i was awake by a dream.

A really bad dream.

How I wish it was just a dream, but it seemed like it's starting in my reality.

I dreamed a dream, a dream I'd never knew it would happen.

And never wish it would happen.

But I'm starting to lose them, I don't know why.

I just felt like that, like I'm totally lost this few days.

Totally not in the mood today, that dream made my day worst, like totally.

I woke up in the morning, searching for someone for me to grab on.

But I'm the first to wake, and I feel so lonely.

In that moment, I really need someone to talk to me.

To tell me that Dream is always a dream, which people said it's opposite to reality.

But, I can't found anyone.

Like, I'm totally on my own.

Friends, something that I'd treasure the most,

But I still can't found someone that really treasure me,

Like the way I did.

Few of'em did, and I'm really glad I'm with'em.

It's out of my expectation that, those I'm hoping for,

Was actually just my own thoughts.

Once again, I'm disappointed.

Once again, I failed in my friendship test.

Once again, I'm for my own.

Family, something that I found better than friends.

Remember when I'm still young,

I'd like to talkback or quarrel with my family,

Like every teenager did, like it's so cool.

And put friendship at the first place.

But now I realize, family is always the best.

Even when you did something wrong, they'd forgive you.

Even when you're sad, they would just sitting beside, without asking what'd happen.

Even when you failed, they'll encourage you to keep it up.

I love my family this year, although they don't know what happened to me all the time.

But they're always by my side.

By then, I'm listening to songs,

And I could feel my tears.

Sometimes, I wonder.

Am I too sensitive.

Or I just cared too much.

This September,

I hope I'd really found someone here for me.

Someone to listen to me when I'm not good,

Someone to talk to me when I'm upset,

Someone to hug me when I'm so alone,

Someone to care about me when I'm on my own,

Someone to pull me back when I'm lost,

Someone that really stay.

真的只是有時候 ♥

2010-09-22T22:10:00.000+08:00

真的只是有時候,莫名的心情不好,不想和任何人説話,只想一個人靜靜的發呆.

真的只是有時候,突然覺得心情煩躁,看什麽都覺得不舒服,心裏悶得發慌,平明想尋找一個出口.

真的只是有時候,發現身邊的人都不了解自己,面對著身邊的人,突然覺得說不出話.

真的只是有時候,感覺自己與世界格格不入,曾經一直堅持的東西一夜間面目全非.

真的只是有時候,突然很想逃離現在的生活,像不顧一切收拾自己的行李去流浪.

真的只是有時候,別人突然對你說,我覺得你變了,然後自己開始百感交集.

真的只是有時候,希望時間為自己停下,就這樣和喜歡的人地老天荒.

真的只是有時候,在自己脆弱的時候,想一個人躲起來,不願別人看到自己的傷口.

真的只是有時候,突然很想哭,卻難過得哭不出來.

真的只是有時候,夜深人靜的時候,突然覺得寂寞深入骨髓.

真的只是有時候,明明自己心裏有很多話要說,卻不知道怎樣表達.

真的只是有時候,覺得自己其實一無所有,仿佛被世界抛棄.

真的只是有時候,明明自己身邊很多朋友,卻依然覺得孤單.

真的只是有時候,很像放縱自己,希望自己徹徹底底醉一次.

真的只是有時候,自己的夢想很多,卻力不從心.

真的只是有時候,常常找不到事情,無聊得無所適從.

真的只是有時候,突然找不到自己,把自己丟了.

真的只是有時候,心裏突然冒出一種厭倦的情緒,覺得自己很累很累.

真的只是有時候,看不到自己未來的樣子,迷茫的不知所措.

真的只是有時候,發現自己一夜之間長大了.

真的只是有時候,聽到一首老歌,就突然想起一個人.

真的只是有時候,別人誤解了自己有口無心的一句話,心裏鬱悶得發慌.

真的只是有時候,常常在回憶裏掙扎,有很多過去無法釋懷.

真的只是有時候,渴望別人的關懷,渴望一份簡單的快樂.

真的只是有時候,看著時間一點點流逝,自己卻無能爲力.

60 stuff that girl thought of saying but not. ♥

2010-09-18T22:09:00.000+08:00

1. Touch her waist.

1.搂她的腰

2. Actually talk to her.

2.跟她真正的谈话

3. Share secrets with her.

3.和她分享秘密

4. Give her 1 of your sweatshirts

4.给她一件你的衬衫

5. Kiss her slowly.

5.温柔地亲她

6. Hug her.

6.和她拥抱

7. Hold her.

7.抱住她

8. Laugh with her.

8.和她一起笑

9. Invite her everywhere.

9.带她去你去的地方

10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

10.和朋友们出去玩的时候也带上她

11. Smile with her.

11.和她一起微笑

12. Take pictures with her.

12.和她合影

13. Pull her onto your lap.

13.让她坐在你的膝上

14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.

14.当她说她爱你多一些的时候，告诉她你爱她更多

15. When her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she can't get to her friends. it makes her feel loved.

15.当她的朋友说ta爱她比你多的时候，要说不对，然后紧紧抱住她，使她不能到朋友身边。这让她感到被爱

16. Always hug her and say hi whenever you see her.

16、见到她的时候，总是拥抱她，对她说Hi

17. Kiss her unexpectedly.

17.在意料不到的时候亲她

18. Hug her from behind around the waist.

18.从后面抱住她的腰

19. Tell her she's beautiful.

19.告诉她她很漂亮

20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

20.实话实说告诉她你对她的感觉One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.而且一定要表现出你在说真话

21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car (if any)- it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.

21.为她开门，陪她走到车边（如果有的话）——这让她有安全感，再说了，有点绅士风度也不收你钱

22. Tell her she's your everything - ONLY if you mean it.

22.当你真的这么想的时候，告诉她她是你的一切

23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her- if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT- so just hug her.

23.如果她看起来有心事，问问她——如果她说没有，说明她不想谈！！！！——所以给她一个拥抱

24. Make her feel loved.

24.让她感到你是爱她的

25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know

25.在你的异性朋友面前亲她WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE IT AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US我们总是说不但是事实上我们有点喜欢你们挠我们的痒痒

26. DON'T lie to her

26.不要对她说谎！！

27. DON'T cheat on her!

27.别脚踏两只船！！

28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants

28.带她去任何她想去的地方

29. Text messege or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at work {or school}, and how much you MISS her.

29.每天早上给她发短信或是打电话，告诉她今天要好好的，还要告诉她你有多想她

30. Be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can ALWAYS count on you.

30.无论什么时候，都陪伴在她身边，让她知道她永远可以依赖你

31. Hold her close when she's cold so she can hold YOU too.

31.很冷的时候抱紧她，因为这样她也可以抱紧你

32. When you are ALONE hold her close and kiss her.

32.独处的时候，抱紧她，吻她

33. Kiss her on the CHEEK: (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).

33.吻她的脸颊（告诉她你想吻她了）

34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her LIGHTLY.

34.看电影的时候，把她搂在怀里，这样她就会自己把头放在你的肩膀上，然后请你微微抬起她的脸颊，然后轻轻地亲她

35. Dont EVER tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. If shes upset, comfort her.

35.永远不要让她离开，不管你是开玩笑还是真的生气了。如果她不高兴了，请安慰她

36. When people DISS her, stand up for her.

36.(不知道Diss什么意思！所以我就胡扯了啊)当人们开她玩笑，嘲笑她的时候，要替她说话

37. Look deep into her EYES and tell her you love her.

37.凝望她的眼睛，告诉她你爱她

38. Lay down under the STARS and put her head on your chest so you can cuddle.

38.在星空下躺下，让她把头放在你的胸口，这样你就可以搂住她

39. When walking next to each other grab her HAND.

39.和她说话的时候，握住她的手

40. When you hug her HOLD her in your arms as long as possible

40.和她拥抱的时候，抱的越长越好

41. Call or text her EVERY night to wish her SWEET DREAMS

41.每晚都要给她打电话或发短信祝好梦

42. COMFORT her when she cries and wipe away her tears.

42.当她哭泣的时候，安慰她，为她拭去泪水

43. Take her for LONG walks at night.

43.晚上和她出去散步，走很长时间

44. ALWAYS remind her how much you love her.

44.总是提醒她你有多爱她

45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much u love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while sitting on her.

45.坐在她后面一排，告诉她你多爱她，然后弯下腰吻她

46. Rub her back--feels good

46.用手摩挲她的后背——感觉很好

47. Give her your coat if she's cold--thats always cute

47.她冷的时候给她你的外衣——总是感觉很贴心

48. Write letters on her back with your finger--feels good ;D

48.用手指在她后背写字——感觉很好

49. Let her sit on your lap

49.让她坐在你膝上

50. DON'T poke her hard...but if you want to mess around just do it lightly.50.别戳得太狠...但是想和她开玩笑的时候就轻轻地戳她：D

51. HOLD her HAND in PUBLIC.

51.在公共场合下握住她的手

52. Even if she looks BAD one day tell her she's BEAUTIFUL

52.告诉她她有多美——即使有一天她看起来不咋的

53. Keep conversations flowing...talk about anything usually they just go along with it.

53.让你们的对话一直延续下去...她会和你一直说下去

54. If their hair is in their face move it out of her face and then kiss her passionatley and gently.

54.如果她的头发遮住了脸，拂开头发然后温柔又不失激情地吻她

55. Surprisingly sneek up on her and hug her from behind--loves it.

55.悄悄到她身边然后从背后抱住她——最爱

56. Kiss her in the rain.

56.在雨中吻她

57. Pick her up like in The Notebook and kiss her.

57.把她像电影the Notebook里那样抱起来然后吻她

58. Slow dance with no music

58.和她慢慢地跳舞...不用音乐

59. Don't ignore her or be nerveous around her--everything is going to be okay.

59.不要忽视她，不要紧张，在她身边，一切都会好起来

60. Love her, kiss her, hold her, and you'll be good to go. ;D

60.爱她，吻她，抱住她，这样一切都会解决

請珍惜這樣的"她". ♥

2010-09-12T20:47:00.000+08:00

她其实有点懒，喜欢赖床。她其实不太乖，喜欢捣蛋。

她在陌生人面前会很安静，很冷漠，在熟人面前却很放肆，很霸道，并喜欢没形象的哈哈大笑。不要认为她很粗鲁，她只是很单纯的认为，大家打打闹闹，骂骂笑笑，表示更亲切，更不分你我。

她独立，也好强，她宁愿忍受太多的寂寞和痛苦也不愿意向别人提起。她也会偶尔的忧郁，朋友问她怎么了，她也只会说没事。

其实她只是感觉累了，她只是需要一个拥抱。

其实骨子里，渴望有一个避风港湾，让她去依靠。但她不会承认。

她必须确定那个人是否可以承受得了这一切的，承受她的撒娇、她的无理取闹，她的倔强，她的悲观，她所有的性格缺陷且永远不离不弃。

只有这样，她才放心，可以放心去继续做自己，不会害怕有一天将要面对失去。

如果没有，那么她只好继续寂寞和孤独。

她对爱情没有安全感，也不会给别人安全感。

她爱不起，更怕伤害。

她一定要对方先流露出对她有好感，她才散发她的热情。她爱的永远是对她最好的那个，那个好她心里是有一个标准的，你的积分超过了那条线，她会爱上你，但大多数人没超过线之前就离开了，或者超过了之后没等她看到就离开了。

其实她要的并不多，她要的只是一个温暖的家。对她来说太重要了，虽然在她们口中说出来的却是:我不需要爱情。

她恋爱的时候，喜欢大事听男孩子的而在小事上调皮，耍赖。

不要认为她太小气，蛮不讲理，其实在她调皮的习惯里已经为你收敛不少！

当你紧张他的异性朋友,她会一面跟你说，他只是我的谁谁谁，却一面偷偷在意你的感受。。。

她会希望现在的他是怎样怎样的，有各种各样的挑剔苛求的条件.她只不过是想要一个用努力来证明爱她的人，她不求结果，只希望你有那份心。

对她们而言,唯一具备杀伤力的只有感情，感情如果受到挫折，会毁了她，要么成就了她。从此更加漠然，专注于事业。

她分手后完全不会像其他坐在人面前要死要活，她嬉笑怒闹,变得更加开朗.在听到朋友说有关他的话题时，从不刻意回避，她适当参与，淡然微笑，她的表现总会遭人怀疑这段感情的深浅,而人群中只有那些知道背后情节的人才看见她背后的眼泪和努力。

她不允许男孩子的背叛，如果男孩子真的办了对不起她的事，她一定会狠心的离开你。

不要怪她太绝情，她其实很爱你，但是卑微的爱情她不要，她果断的转身只是不想让你看见她滑落的泪水！

她失恋的时候会在别人面前装的很好，大声的笑，放声的闹。当姐妹心疼的说：“你没事吧？”她会放下她所有的骄傲，趴到姐妹怀里哭。哭完了，苦笑一声：没想到我还会为一个男的哭。

她从来不会在情人面前大声哭泣，除非她真的崩溃了。即使在你爱着她的时候，她也会胡思乱想让自己悲伤。如果你看到她的眼泪，请相信这绝不是她在博取同情，这是她这样一颗内心骄傲的女子不得己的场景。她想对你负责，对她负责，对自己的过去和未来负责，但请你不要轻易给她承诺和誓言.她很难相信. 即使她很难相信，但她还是会选择等待。若她喜欢上你，请你不要在她的世界里消失。她没有更多的要求，不会打扰你的生活。她只是想静静的看着你，当你的观众，仅此而已。

她的伤初始浓烈似酒，很快就会变为一杯水，却让水渗入生活成为点点滴滴.她选择在其中淡定，在其中沉默和内伤.

她就是这样，强势,霸道,任性。。。

不会讨人欢心，死要面子，她爱朋友多过你。

她善变，最耐不住寂寞却又喜欢假惺惺的让自己一个人呆着。

有时候她又充满阳光的气息，爱笑爱说话，活蹦乱跳，可爱迷人。。

她很自私，只愿意与人同甘，不愿意让别人跟她共苦。。。

她的家庭不一定很是富裕，但她都是习惯了养尊处优。

她喜欢热闹，总会成为聚会的焦点，前提是她想。

她也享受孤独，会静坐在一个人的房间听着很伤感的音乐。

她也会一整天呆在房间里心情压抑低落,但第二天一早起来，又会轻轻松松的打理一切，慌慌忙忙的拽着大衣拎着包往外冲。

她习惯在人前表现的很坚强，一付大女子主义的模样。

她会想,遇到真正懂她爱她宠她的人,她就一定就会很安静，心甘情愿的安静下来，不烦,不闹，按时吃饭按时睡觉,按时做一切能安心和他一起做的事情.

她从不轻言爱，她的爱很沉默，那并非是因为她缺少那份勇气，在她的心里有一道栅栏，那就是自尊。

她看得比生命更尊贵的自尊。

她会在真正爱她的人面前卸掉所有的盔甲和伪装，做个幸福的小女人，她不要求你要做什么，不会无理取闹要你陪着她，她有自己的生活，她给你空间因为她也需要空间.

她在你面前永远性感调皮，偶尔撒撒娇，跟你玩陌生人的游戏，在你的朋友面前从来大方得体，微笑的依偎在你身边。

她不让你给她买这买那，但是心里却会为你私自买给她的礼物而暗自开心，因为女人觉得那是你的宠爱。

她在意的是你的心，你若真心，她必然实意。最起码你得表现的真心,能让她感觉得到.

终有一天,她的敏感在你的呵护下慢慢消失不见，她的倔强被你的保护软化，她的伪装在你面前被轻易识穿。。。

得到她,别骄傲,

只有懂她的人，才会得到她的好。

她有时是有些迟钝的，在感情方面，但有时很敏感,因为她在乎。。。

如果你没有绝对的真心，请别爱她，因为她最怕没安全感，害怕失去平衡。。。

这一种女孩子就以这样的方式生活着，

她有她的梦想，

她的希望。

一个如花儿般的女孩子，

她时而快乐，

时而忧伤；

时而郁闷，

时而疯狂；

时而邪恶，

时而善良；

时而脆弱，

时而坚强！

你可以说她傻，

也可以骂她笨，

也可以说她冷，

但是她们还是生活在自己的世界里，

希望做一个幸福、善良的孩子！

2010-08-19T19:36:00.000+08:00

想念,也是一種幸福.♥

2010-08-17T18:51:00.000+08:00

快樂就是單純的幸福. ♥

2010-08-16T21:13:00.002+08:00

I can feel what friends mean,

when they cry together while you cry

and laugh together while you laugh. ♥

2010-08-13T21:49:00.000+08:00

When someone said you're a part of their family. ♥

2010-08-12T16:46:00.000+08:00

幸福是,在對的時間遇見適合的人.♥

I don't wanna talk about it- Rose

2010-08-08T21:12:00.003+08:00

I don't wanna talk about it by Rose
I can tell by your eyes
That you've probably been crying forever
And the stars in the sky
Don't mean nothing to you
They are mirrors
I don't wanna talk about it
How you broke my heart
If I stay here just a little bit longer
If I stay here will you listen to my heart
Oh my heart
If I stand all alone
Will the shadows hide the colours of my heart
Blue for the tears black for the night' tears
The stars in the sky It don't mean nothing to you
they're just mirrors
I don't wanna talk about it
How you broke my heart
If I stay here just a little bit longer
If I stay here won't you listen

I kept repeated this song,
and my heart feels so effing hurt
idk why.
it feels like she sang her story,
I can feel it,
it really hurts.
Someone's always there for her passed year,
And now, he disappear,
The same place, the same stage, the same vocal,
But the one supporting her, was never her' him anymore.

I finally opened up, ♥

2010-07-21T19:57:00.003+08:00

Had a conversation with my mum in the car just now, she talked about those flashbacks which I think it was not so healthy.
Our conversation start like this.

*Open the car’s door, take up the books which I put on the seat.
“ Girl, Why don’t you put your books at the back? You always put on your lap and there’s so much space at the back actually. Why don’t let yourself sit more comfortable and relax?”
“ When would see me relax myself? Nevermind, it’s okay mum, just a short journey back home, it won’t be tiring.”
“ Yeah, you won’t ever let yourself rest, even when you’re in primary dear. What if you become crazy when you grew elder? Like other students?”
“ Nah, at least I’m better now mum. I really did right? I still remembered some of’em. I’m worst during primary.”
“ I’m glad you talked much now and I really can see you’re growing. You know, when you’re in Primary 1, you really scared me.”
“ ahha, I know that, I still can remember, I actually cried for not going to school right? Between, what’s the whole story? I couldn’t remember all.”
“ Yea, you’re really silly that time, you know, when you’re in primary, you’re so interested in studying, like you must’ve finished your homework before other stuff you wanted to do, unlike other child, I don’t have to worry about you dear. And one incident made you become someone like having Autistic. Someday after school, you were like not talking for the whole day, and the next day, you were complaining stomach cramp and don’t wanna go to school. The first day you complaint, we just forced you to go. But every morning you’re having reasons for not going to school, this last for about one week, we know you like school, and not-going-to-school shouldn’t be on your mouth, and we realized that you feel so uncomfortable even at home, you can’t eat you can’t sleep, you couldn’t even tell us what happen. We almost sent you to the psychologist. But I decided to see your teacher without you knowing.”
“ Awww, I really made you worry so much that time, and that time I really look like those autistic child? You really did send me to the psychologist?”
“ Yea, you don’t even talk to us you know. We don’t want to treat you really as those child, so I see your teacher first. And she told us the whole story. She said that you didn’t finished your BM homework, and the teacher just speak louder and it scares you. then I told your teacher that my child is more sensitive, coz when you and your brother were young, you both heard me and your dad talking loudly and you all thought we all are quarreling.”
“ Yea mha, the teacher didn’t write it in the notebook, I really forgot to do. You and dad quarrel when we’re young?”
“ Of course not, we’re just having some conflict and speak in a louder way. I’m glad you talked much and became more happy now.”

Such a long conversation with my mum, that incident happened when I’m in primary one, I actually kept it inside cause I knew I’ve some kind of unhealthy stuff in me, and finally I opened up to listen the whole story. Actually I’m still feeling it inside my heart, I think I just couldn’t let go, I tried thinking back and figure out what had really happened to me when I’m at that age, but I end up with tears on my face. I tried to tell people about this incident too, but sometimes I feel like people will look down on me or they just couldn’t understand how I feel. Now I realize that I really don’t speak up, even since when I’m small, idk why, I just won’t tell anyone what happen to me. While listening to those flashbacks, I can’t believe that I almost have that kind of sickness when I’m young, my mum pulled me out, and won’t let me step deeper into it. At least, I’m fine now. Thanks mum. ♥

End of May. ♥

2010-05-31T19:32:00.004+08:00

May's favourite. ♥

Hey people, it's been so long since I last post.
It's the last day of May already.
Time passed by so fast.
We're having a few days holiday since Friday till Wednesday.
And we had sold our Chinese Orchestra concert tickets around Kk.
That's quite nice that this year's tickets are sold out quite good.But the weather for this few days were damn hot.
So sorry to make them sell tickets under the sun, but I'm glad they didn't disappoint me and themselves.
That means they have achievement under those hard works.
Thank you my members. mwahh~ ♥

And yeah, i'm talking about selling tickets,
And people should know that Chinese Orchestra Concert are so near naw.
Since I've start mentioning about this, lets describe it well.
Yea,
建国中学华乐团与2010年6月19日举行《与您有约》演奏会..演奏会会在建国中学大礼堂举行
时间是晚上7点30分
Meet you there. =)

^0^

Curl. =D

Short. :(

The Sixes.

Chinese- Choral Tribute to Lily Allen by Capital Children's Choir ♥

2010-05-15T17:27:00.009+08:00

This actual song is sang by Lily Allen,
this song is dedicated to her mum, Alison Owen.
The Capital Children's Choir from St.John's Wood,London.
This song is orchestrated and arranged by Rachel Santesso.
They had other songs in their website,
to know more about them, do visit www.capitalchoir.com

It's an awesome song. I like it so much.
Enjoy the video. ♥

Chinese- Lily Allen.
I see you from the sky
And I wonder how long it will take me to get home
I wait for an hour or so at the carousel
I have a cigarette to pass the time
Cause the traffic's hell

I don't want anything more
Than to see your face when you open the door
You'll make me beans on toast and a nice cup of tea
And we'll get a Chinese and watch TV
Tomorrow we'll take the dog for a walk
And in the afternoon then maybe we'll talk
I'll be exhausted so I'll probably sleep
And we'll get a Chinese and watch TV

You wipe the tears from my eye
And you say that all that it takes is a phone call
I cry at the thought of being alone and then
I wonder how long it will take til I'm home again

I don't want anything more
Than to see your face when you open the door
You'll make me beans on toast and a nice cup of tea
And we'll get a Chinese and watch TV
Tomorrow we'll take the dog for a walk
And in the afternoon then maybe we'll talk
I'll be exhausted so I'll probably sleep
And we'll get a Chinese and watch TV

I know it doesn't seem so fair
But I'll send you a postcard when I get there

I don't want anything more
Than to see your face when you open the door
You'll make me beans on toast and a nice cup of tea
And we'll get a Chinese and watch TV
Tomorrow we'll take the dog for a walk
And in the afternoon then maybe we'll talk
I'll be exhausted so I'll probably sleep
And we'll get a Chinese and watch TV

2010-04-10T21:35:00.007+08:00

男朋友

一。你要经常去她的个人主页，即使什么也不留下，但是她看到你来过的记录也会很开心。
二。当你和她打电话时，你一定要她先挂你的电话，即使她说了一百遍要你先挂。
三。和她发短信时，字数一定要比她的多，这样她会觉得你是在乎她的。
四。和她在一起时，不要什么都顾着自己的喜好，即使她说了一万遍要你不要管她。
五。每天睡觉之前一定要给她一条道晚安的短信，不管你有多晚，因为她可能一直在等你，只是她嘴上说不管。
六。你问她想不想你时，如果她说不想，你一定要很开心，因为她的不想就是想。
七。任何时候不要让她找不到你，因为这样她会一直很不安心。
八。你们发生矛盾时，不要动不动拿以后来威胁她。
九。就算她跟你无理取闹你也要原谅她，因为她那是在测试你在乎她的程度。因为她那是缺乏安全感
十。对她对你已经说过一万遍的关心，不要不耐烦的说知道了知道了，要很感动的说谢谢，因为那真的都是她出自内心的关心。
十一。当她关心你时，不要说出：原来你也会关心我这样的话。这样会很伤她心，因为这对于她来说是一种很大的否定。
十二。就算你再忙，你也不能一连好几天不给她短信，或者对她忽冷忽热，因为这样会让她很恐慌，是不是自己又做错了什么。
十三。千万要记得她都是害羞的，不要什么都让她主动。
十四。即使最后你们还是不能走到一起，记得，一定要跟她说清楚，因为她都是专情的，不要让她再等你。
十五。分手后，千万不要再对她说出以后还是朋友这样的话，因为这样她会觉得自己很悲哀。
男朋友就是为了陪你而放弃了他最爱的玩游戏、打篮球的那个人
男朋友就是每天不厌其烦的陪你吃饭、打水、散步、自习、送你回宿舍（家）的那个人；
男朋友就是虽然身上没什么钱，也会请你吃饭的那个人；
男朋友就是早晨你醒来时第一个想到的那个人；
男朋友就是能跟你打电话聊到半夜都舍不得挂的那个人；
男朋友就是在你最艰难的时候陪伴在你身边的那个人；
男朋友就是为了不让你担心，无论出了什么事都要自己默默承担的那个人；
男朋友就是手机里总是存满你给他发的短信，直到信箱满了都舍不得删掉的那个人；
男朋友就是无论你是不是漂亮都会夸赞你漂亮的那个人；
男朋友就是以玩游戏为由察看你的手机纪录，确信跟你常联系的都是你的女性朋友才放心的那个人；
男朋友就是学会唱他认为好听的歌，然后在你耳边唱给你听的那个人；
男朋友就是努力做到让你用崇拜的眼光来看他的那个人；
男朋友就是在你任性、耍小脾气时，也会忍住脾气不会冲你发火的那个人；
男朋友就是看到你流泪时，为你擦去泪水给你一个温暖拥抱的那个人；
男朋友就是就算你犯了错误，也舍不得骂你的那个人；
男朋友就是可以在车站等你很久也不会介意的那个人；
男朋友就是明明最不喜欢逛街，还能陪你一家一家的逛到你觉得满意为止的那个人；
男朋友就是在期末你为考试焦头烂额时耐心的帮你复习功课的那个人；
男朋友就是最爱在你面前展露他的本领的那个人；
男朋友就是有着宽厚的肩膀可以让你随时依靠的那个人；
男朋友就是吃饭时放慢速度等你的那个人；
男朋友就是总是让你走在马路内侧的那个人；
男朋友就是过马路时会紧紧拉住你的手的人；
男朋友就是就算情人节也不会买花给你，让你对他又爱又气的那个人；
男朋友就是深夜为你开着手机的那个人；

珍惜你身边那个爱生气的女人 *

* 她总是问:你在哪?你干什么呢?
- 她很关心你,只是想跟你说说话;你不给她发信息,她很矛盾,怕你在忙,但又忍不住想你.换了别人,爱干嘛就干嘛,她根本不会去关心.所以请你一有时间就问候她一下,让她放心,让她知道你心里有她.她总是主动联系你,她会觉得她贱

* 她说:天冷了,记得多穿衣服~
- 不要嫌她烦,不要说她像你妈,你妈妈有时可能都比不上她对你的关心.换了别人,冻死也不关她的事!她知道你不傻,她只想让你知道她心里有你

* 她说:我不高兴了
- 不要怪她无理取闹,她不是真的不开心,只是想你了,只是想要你几句安慰的话:乖~别闹了~

* 她总说自己又胖了或者长得不够漂亮
- 不要觉得她嫉妒别人,她只是怕在你眼中不够完美

* 她总说你看谁谁谁他们怎么怎么样
- 不要说她贪慕虚荣,总羡慕别人,她只是想让你知道怎样做能使她高兴

* 她说你看谁多有钱,长得多帅
- 你不用生气,在她眼里,你是最好的,她只是想让你为了她努力奋斗

* 她不分场合的抱你,吻你
- 她不是炫耀什么,只是想让别人知道你俩有多好

* 她总说她会帮你,让你有事找她
- 其实她知道她帮不了你什么,她只想让你知道你还有她,她永远在你身边陪你

* 不论是过马路还是走在哪,她用手死死拽住你的胳臂
- 不要说她粘人,她只是告诉你她信任你

* 她总是走在你的左边
- 不要说她多事,她只是想离你的心更近一些

* 她看到你跟别的女生亲近一些就会生气
- 别说她小气,不信任你,她其实是在吃醋,这表示她十分在乎你

* 她爱忧伤,爱掉泪
- 别怪她多愁善感,她只是缺乏安全感,你要知道,她很少会为别人流泪

* 在买东西时她总征求你的意见
- 别说她没主见,依赖你,她只是尊重你,凡事以你为先

* 出去吃饭,她吃得很少说吃不了,让你替她吃
- 别说她挑食或者浪费,她只是怕你吃不饱

* 买东西她总买便宜的
- 别说她小气,她只是想为你省钱

* 给你买东西,总买贵的
- 你可能不需要,不喜欢,但别怪她浪费,她只是想告诉你她可要把最好的留给你

* 跟你在一起总爱玩失踪
- 别说她淘气,吓唬你,她只是爱看你急着找她的样子,证明一下她对你来说是重要的

* 她总假装生气转身离开
- 记住,她不是真地想走,离开时想要被挽留

* 她会突然冷淡你,或向你撒娇
- 别怪她孩子气,她只是想让你哄哄她

永远不会发脾气的女人就如同一杯白开水 -- 解渴,却无味

* 你迟到,她向你发脾气
- 是因为她紧张你,她怕你出了什么意外

* 你抽烟,她向你发脾气
- 是因为她担心你的身体健康

* 你喝酒,她向你发脾气
- 是因为她担心你酒醉后没有人照顾,更怕你在酒吧会出什么事,留下她一个人

* 你身上被发现有别的女人香,她向你发脾气
- 是因为她在乎你,你是她的所有,她不想跟别人分亨你

* 你臭袜子乱扔,她向你发脾气
- 是因为她关心你,她怕有一天你会被自己的臭袜子淹没,所以她要先把你训练好

* 你忘记她的生日,她向你发脾气
- 是因为她对你有所期待,她并不会要求一个陌生人记住她的生日

~ 女人是最讲理的动物,她的脾气往往导因于各式各样的理由
~ 女人也是最不讲理的动物,她的理由经常令人无法理解

女人可以为了一件小得不能再小的事,发一场大得不能再大的脾气,因为女人对身边的男人有所要求,有所期望,所以常常会失望;失落 .
因此,女人容易对男人发脾气

身边有个会向你发脾气的女人,其实是一件多么幸福的事!
而身边有一个会让自己发脾气的男人,对女人是最大的折磨,也是莫大的幸福!

假如有一天,她不在为你生气..
留下的只有漆黑的房间,慌乱的心跳,述说着心灵深处的痛楚,
那寂寞的思念,那暗淡的惆怅,还有那幸福的幻觉,独自呓语!

当有一天,女人不在对男人发脾气的时候,那么一切就即将结束了!

For the first time.

2010-04-10T19:58:00.002+08:00

Its not too fine today.

I'd cried during recess in class,

I failed on controlling those tears which I've been saving for like months?

Yup, month to month, I've been keeping those stuff inside, really deep.

Every stuff are kept secretly, no one knowing.

I'd cried, but without one's knowing, silently.

I tried to find someone to talk to, but I found no one.

And end up crying silently in my jacket.

Recess passed, more people came into the class,

still no one realize I'm been crying.

That means I'm succeed in hiding my expression?

I guess so, three periods after recess.

That three periods of teachers teaching, I'm still so emotional, and my watery eyes are so naughty.

They keep won't let me dry my eyes.

That three periods are suffering me, I feel like crying, but I just can't.

Controlling those tears, make myself concentrate on study, I failed so.

After that, school's done. Way to practice.

Had my lunch at canteen, talked to jie and muii.

I thought I would cried once more, but not.

Tired of crying after three periods of controlling those tears.

For the first time I cried in class, after studying at school for so many years.

And I don't know why, I just can't take it this time.

It's like everything became so hard, just too tough for me.

People thought I look like I'm tough and actually I'm bleeding inside.

There's so much, like I don't know why, I just can't forget things that I've passed through.

Even if it's over. It's still there in my heart, in my mind.

It seemed to be loving my mind and my heart.

Finally, I cried all stuff out, since I last cried on last year's September.

Thanks for those who listened to me. ♥

Don't worry, I'm fine.

I just treated here as someone I can talk to.

Because it seems like I have not many of'em left.

Updated.

2010-03-14T00:26:00.002+08:00

woah, it's been so long time since i've not been updating.

Well, sorry for not updating guys.

Busy with exams after CNY.

My papers are, uhhm, i dont wanna talk about that.

Quite stress, seem to rush for me this semester.

Last few years, we're having our exams after the semester's holiday.

But this year we're having before it.

I'm posting now, its 12.30am.

I'm just back from dinner and pool with my jie.

We had our dinner at Damai Upperstar.

Sorta long time didn't hang out with friends. miss those moments.

Chee Kang met us there, then we went for pool at Metro.

Okay, I'm gonna talk about that. But I sucks.

I just playing around there, coz I''m not expert bha.

Then Chee Kang taught me loads, thanks to him. =)

We played a while, and got a people asked to compete with Chee Kang.

I'm playing with him that time, but nevermind, I thought I could play with jie.

Then the people's daughter come forward and say wanna compete with me.

I was like 'what? I'm just beginner.'

Well, nevermind, it just start like that.

I lose 7 balls, haha. That's what I call Pros in LOSING.

Even a straight line i can't make it rightly, so "Pro" right.

I'm gonna commit suicide, lol.

I'm having my Chinese Orchestra camp tomorrow till 2oth.

Hope everything's alright.

Don't miss me.

Good Night people. =D

5th day of CNY.

2010-02-19T22:12:00.002+08:00

Hello people, sorry for not posting.

It's the 5th day of Chinese New Year.

And I was still kinda bored here.

I've nothing to do, just online, watch tv, eat, drink , sleep.

And those would made my days.

Woke up quite late this morning,

Ate my breakfast and watch tv alone while my brother is still sleeping.

My grandma was sitting on the dining table chatting with those elderly.

Well, I heard something that's kinda........Hurt?

Suddenly, she mentioned about 'hey, where's ah boy (my bro), he not yet eat wor.'

Then they told her he's still sleeping.

Minutes passed, my bro finished eating.

She mentioned again ' Ah Boy didn't ate rice today orh, he ate so little.'

And I was like, urgh, why didn't anyone mentioned about me,

Even if i skipped my meals? When I went out?

Nevermind, further more, my bro is their important one.

Hmmm, sorta, everyone likes him.

Maybe because I'm too quiet when I'm with'em.

Nevermind, let it be.

I'm Okay.

And now, I'm gonna talk about a jerk.

I'm not sure how old is he, but I'm pretty sure he's younger than me.

He's like dropping comments on a photo,

sorta, nonsense?

I really cant bare of him, gosh, so childish.

Not gonna talk about it, maybe some of you would know if you saw my photo comments.

Pissed of kid, you're such a jerk!

Happy Chinese New Year and Happy Valentines. ♥

2010-02-14T02:00:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year and Happy Valentines people!

May your day be joyful and sweet. =)

For Chinese New Year, I remain the same.

Went back to KL for my CNY,

And for Valentines,

It's also the same, I ignore it.

cause I'm Single. ♥

this year's Chinese New Year it's a bit quiet.

I don't have that New Year mood.

No gambling, No chit-chatting.

I'm just with my baby lappy, and several cans of alcohol beside.

Online, Watch tv, Drink.

Boo~ it's so bored here.

People came for shopping in KL,

But every year i came i'm just staying at home,

It's like ugh, you know people take chances to came here for shopping,

and i came here for nothing EVERY YEAR.

gosh, I wanna had that crazy shopping too.

I'm so moodless about this new year, idk why.

I want this Chinese New Year to be special,

Cause it's with Valentines.

But..It's still the same.

Nothing to be so curious about that.

My baby boy and my baby lappy would be my Valentines partner.

they're just great for me. =D

Till then, I've nothing much to talk about.

have a nice day people!

Last day of Sports meet.

2010-02-11T23:00:00.004+08:00

Woohoo~

finally ended our sports meet.

this year it's a bit different, our sports meet is 4 days time.

so long though, i realize cheerleading is more fun than sitting there cheering for athlets..

next year i'll join back cheerleading.*weets

and it's quiet weird,

this year i'm just like sitting inside the camp house for the whole sports meet and then....

I get sunburn! wth!

every year I'm joining cheerleading,dancing under the hot sun and nothing happen.

this year i'm just inside the camp house and i get sunburn?!!

on the face and neck somemore. like reddish black face..oh-my-gosh.

so ugly and weird looking.

and you saw my post right now, I'm at KL.

every CNY i'm at KL.

hmmm, nothing special.

eventhough this year's Chinese New Year is with Valentines,

but it's still the same for me,

coz I'm single what.

Valentines is nothing so special for me,

cause it's the same every year,

I celebrate it myself,

or just ignore it.

[ Houses banner.]

[ Kah man and Siao.]

[ Me and Siao.]

[ three of us.]

[ Siao and me.]

[ Me. Green House. ]

Saturday night. Yam cha

2010-01-23T01:49:00.002+08:00

it's like long time I didn't post here.

hmmm..cause it's nothing special about my school life.

just getting more and more busy.

and i feel sleepy most of the periods, I don't know why.

awww..it's Saturday again.

half day school, then CO practice, then meeting till 6pm.

arrived home, and went out again.

Went to Lintas Yoyo, dated met Yvonne.

woah~ long time didn't saw her. pretty edi.

she bring Allan there. then Angela bring Ah De.

they all like bring leng, then i have no any leng.

Ah De bring loadsa lengs too,but not same table with us.

keep chatting with'em, like loadsa stuff to talk about.

hmmm, after that,went to upperstar for a while.

We thought of eating at first, but then Angela's dad had arrived earlier.

she thought her dad's cheking her,but actually it's not.

then Amelia want to go back edi,Angela also want back, then i went back also lur.

left Set Ling, Sandra and Hui Sien at upperstar,they wanna online there.haha

that's all about today.

great day yam cha with'em. ♥

Senior Life Starts Today. ♥

2010-01-04T17:31:00.000+08:00

It's the first day of school. Holidays ended.

I woke up earlier than usual today,it's so sleepy lha.

Went for assembly,and bla bla blah they talked so much.

Then went back to class, our form teacher Chong VH.

We voted for who to be Monitor,and Assistant Monitor.

and the result is, Anselmus the monitor, Tahnee the assistant.m.

Our treasurer Yee Sun Yen, ass.t. Chin Wei Sun.

Jia Tong sit beside me, cham eh..no friend.

then classes begin, those teacher talk, and if there's something,

boys will just like 'Hahaha" and *Clap Hands.

No idea why they do it everytime.

Almost every period lha.haha..nvm..they're quite funny.

Some teachers are quite too.

We had 55 students in our class,oh-my-gosh.so many lha.

till today...

I'm not feeling well since this morning,I'd sore throat. T___T

New Baby Boy. ♥

2010-01-02T14:44:00.003+08:00

Wake up early this morning.

Need to go to school for my bro's registration.

Then i go see which class.

hmm..

afternoon go buy new phone..weehhh~

W705 keep no stock,so i buy W995 Red. quite nice.=)

my new baby boy. ♥

I'll cherish you de.

31st of December till 1st of January.

2010-01-01T03:00:00.001+08:00

Sorry for not wishing you all for the New Year.

cause it's the first year not spending'em with my family.

In the morning, Melanie come pick me and Ivy.

We followed her to do her stuff until afternoon.

Then we went to Giant to buy some food for our bbq dinner.

I brought some lamb and chicken wings which cost me RM100.

Finish doing all those stuff,then go pick up Sam and Kenneth.

Here we come our bbq dinner~ weehhhh

We're like non-stop bbq-ing and eating since 7.30pm.

We even add butter in those food,haha.

It's 11something, we're tired of bbq-ing,Melanie drive us to Waterfront.

We countdown there,those people are like crazy,totally high,so crowded.

Then we go "yamcha" outside Hito,

actually wanna share one glass with Melanie,but she cant drink much,she need to drive.

and that two guys ordered one jug,when we say stop,they keep ask us drink.

terpaksa lho,long time once,drink only lha.face gone red,i'm not drunk.

then it started raining,we ask the waiter take big big umbrella.

but he said finished already,he offered us to go into the Hito pub.

then when we walked in,loadsa people looking at us.why?

all underage bha kays?so obvious.

that time we stop drinking already,then chee kang's friend come and meet him.

he ordered one more jug,ask me drink lagi. wanna make me drunk?

I need to control myself!!

drink a lil then stop forcing me. I still need to go home lha.

Melanie send us back to her house around 2am.They're staying there.

Chee Kang is like,totally blur,really drunk edi.luckily I'm not.

I wait for mum at her house,then went back home.

My body was totally red.

It's lucky mum didn't notice I drank. But she won't care also.

Arrived home about 2.30am. the first time to be at home at midnight.

I had a great day today.

Lastly,

Happy New Year babes. ♥

Hope year 2010 brought you joy and happiness.

小乖乖-蔡冥佑

2009-12-28T23:01:00.002+08:00

小乖乖-蔡冥佑

nice song..

这城市依然在运转

而我的脑袋 跳针 停不下来

有时候必须为你失去方向感

你说的偶像剧对白

任性了起来 夸张 假装离开

连装可怜的戏码都演得可爱

像小孩无理取闹 学朋友数落我奇怪

责备我太理性没关系 因为你是我

小乖乖 小乖乖 快过来 抱一个

我带你 去体验 电影里的浪漫

一幕幕 提醒我 第一次的感动

这样就够了

我的

小乖乖 小乖乖 快过来 亲一个

在回家 的路上 超幸福的期待

我陪你 看星星 预言精彩未来

一定可以的

乖乖

骑机车随性地转弯

握住你的手 好像 特别自在

这一秒我会故意失去方向感

你说要我抱起来

感觉很呆却很坦白

想照顾我的口吻

哎呀是如此可爱

小乖乖 小乖乖 快过来 抱一个

我常常 在幻想 外星人的恋爱

像不像 你和我 很简单很快乐

这样就够了

我的

小乖乖 小乖乖 快过来 亲一个

我可以 送给你 一首一首的歌

认真了 就可以 变成幸福的人

一定可以的

我的

小乖乖 小乖乖 快过来 抱一个

我常常 在幻想 外星人的恋爱

像不像 你和我 很简单很快乐

这样就够了

我的

小乖乖 小乖乖 快过来 亲一个

我可以 送给你 一首一首的歌

认真了 就可以 变成幸福的人

更好的我们 乖乖

2009-12-25T00:00:00.005+08:00

Christmas ended tonight.

That's nothing special about it.

No celebration.

Every year's same.

How I wish someday i would get that special and memorable one.

Merry Christmas babes. ♥

2009-12-25T00:00:00.003+08:00

Merry Christmas babes. ♥

May this Christmas wishes brings you joy and prosperity. =)

Love ya all.

Love,

Eileen.

PMR result's out today! ='(

2009-12-24T15:04:00.003+08:00

Wake up early in the morning,

went for breakfast and then to school to take my christmas.

and

...

....

.....

......

.......

........

.........

..........

Tadda!! My christmas present was that damn PMR result.

need to queue in the principal office and sign on some kinda paper after taking the result.

PMR result's like hell.

I just got 2As and it's language papers,BM and Eng.

Arrived home, online, people was like 'hey,how's your result'

'I just got 2As.'

'Ow,that's good also lha,got A mha.'

'How about yours?'

'I got straight As,I cant believe myself.'

'Ow,gratz to you,you sure study very hard.'

bla bla bla...................................

They got 8As in government school, and I got 2As in the god damn private school.

Gosh,I was so pissed, so depressed, they're almost all my primary classmates.

I study hard too what,somemore we'll still preparing for UEC after the PMR.

So disappointed,mum keep saying that's because of those internet stuff.

I didn't online during PMR examinations okay,

some of my friends still asked why i didn't online,

between brother's still playing his online games during SPM,and everyday.

okays, till then, gonna calm down.

I'm not gonna cry,coz the time wont went back and let me take the examinations again.

At least I got As in my good subjects.

P/S: Di, the school is close this time,ask your parents to take it on Monday,the school will only be open on Monday.hope you get good results.

23.12.2009

2009-12-23T23:34:00.002+08:00

today morning, go out with mum till evening..

got bought jor two dress..weeehhh~

happy, can wear for cousin's weeding on January.

then yam cha at Coffee Bean lagi,with bro and mum.

long time didn't go jor,talk so much there..=)

after that,went back home.

daddy booked air ticket for next year's cousin's weeding and 'Qing Ming'..more cheap..

Then my turn to online, di so ngam ngam online,chat with him a while.

this morning he arrive HK jor lur..

hmm.

It's Christmas Eve tomorrow.

And guess what, PMR results are out tomorrow.

It would be my BEST PRESENT EVER..

damn nervous eh,aikss.

hope I can get good results.

Sandavarna.

2009-12-20T22:43:00.003+08:00

Woke up 7.30am today,

sms wake di up, he's going to the airport and way to hk and tw for a week.

then my time to prepare, going to Sandavarna.

arrived Sandavarna,prepared food.

And they choosen me and some other youngsters to serve the monk.

We need to put the food into their bowl,quietly,politely,bless them with thankful heart.

After that,we took that food too as our lunch.

Then went to the meditation room, the monk give speech of what's Dharna.

they're two type of Dharna, Batidharna, and one more i forgot

Batidharna is when you have the joy, you shared with everyone.

another one is when others get something and you're jealous.

when you can be happy at both situation,that's what we called Dharna.

after that, went to the new meditation hall,they renovate it,so nice and peaceful.

lastly,went home.

[new meditation hall.]

[ In the car.]

Shadu. Shadu. Shadu.

Super Junior M

2009-12-18T23:23:00.004+08:00

watched 100% Entertainment on tv.

there's two days showing Super Junior M on their show.

Part one and Part 2.

Super Junior members have their own talent show too.

totally in love with them.their addorable.

especially Kyuhyun and Zhoumi.Henry's so cute.

and the second part they're 3 groups of dancers to perform their Super Girl.

Super Junior M will be their judges.

the winner is Super Brother which was a group of little boy,they take the opportunity to take group photo with Super Junior M.

Henry with his Violin.

the winner-Super Brothers

Ring Ding Dong- SHINee

Last post under the name of him.

2009-12-17T20:07:00.004+08:00

If you hold me tight and dont let go.

If you would told me to wait.I'll wait.

But you're just letting go and not taking back.

I thought you would a least split out a word to hold me.

But you didn't.

I know i hurt you so much.

I didn't mean to do that.

Months ago,I tried to post something on your profile,

or maybe message you,

but every time i wroten something,

i just couldn't press the send.

I admit i dont have guts to do so.

I'm glad I didn't do so.

coz I know I'll disappoint myself.

I split this out today,

I dont want my post to be always him.

I dont want my life to be nothing without him.

I just need to try,

try to get rid to mention about him.

try to be not that sensitive when people mentioned about him.

I found that's loads of post under the name you.

This would be the last post mentioned about you.

I would gently let you go.

I let our memoirs stay,

but not through mentioning it to remind myself.

I wont mentioned it anymore.

Thank you for listening to me.

Thank you for those care.

Thank you for pampering me.

Thank you for those memoirs.

Thanks you for loving.

UEC

2009-12-16T22:54:00.002+08:00

UEC result's out today.

checked through sms this morning.

I was like.'oh-my-gosh' when i get the results.

I thought i'm gonna have one or two paper failed.

but I didn't.

told my mum and she was quiet happy.

she said it's not her expectation.

woah~ I'm glad at least i got an A and no F for UEC.

Noon, went for brunch with mum outside.

then to centre and warisan.

it's too bored at home bha.

just looking around in the shopping mall.

then yam cha at Secret Recipe.

Night, waited for daddy in the airport,flight from KL.

finally arrived, went to dinner.

tomorrow is bro's turn to get home,from friends house.=D

All I want for christmas is you.

Happiness and Love. ♥

2009-12-13T17:19:00.003+08:00

Holidays makes me bored,and made me think of you.

I just need to stop living in that very own wonderland.

I just need to wake up and face reality.

Continue breathing, like you continue on your life.

Continue smiling, like you laugh happily with your friends.

You're on your way, and I'm on mine.

Living happily is hard when you just cant let go.

Our love its neither long nor short.

I consider my longest ever, coz I really appreciate.

I knew you for about few years.

But now it's like I don't even know you.

I tried to remember all those memoirs.

But lastly I found that that's not so plenty of'em.

Maybe it's just a lil part of life.

Memoirs are just getting more and more far away from me.

Happiness is just nothing if you're alone.

Happiness is built between each other.

Happiness will be gain through love.

Love can be something,

something we needed to make our life more fulfill.

Love can be nothing,

because someone get hurts too much and not willing to trust love.

Love can be everything,

everything to couples that are really in deep love and put loads of effort in their relationship.

Love is just a thing,

this thing changes in how that person handle love in different situation.

Love is a great thing,

it's just how you handle it and how much you care about your relationship.

P/s: i'm just writing,you can ignore me if you don't like what i'm writing.

Christmas is around.

2009-12-12T21:19:00.002+08:00

Christmas is around.

Peoples are planning on their christmas program.

I'm wondering who could celebrate with me,and what would it be.

Maybe I would just go for a dinner with my family.

Watching several couples on the road. Wishing each other 'Merry Christmas'.

How I wish I could be a part of them.

But I know it's impossible.

Christmas, is some kind of wishing on that special day.

Foreign countries would have snow falling down.

It's winter. White Christmas.

Dear Santa,

I wish this year's Christmas is special for me.

I want ...... for Christmas.

Yesterday's. (10th of December 2009.)

2009-12-11T21:00:00.006+08:00

heyy, sorry for not blogging this few days.

holiday's kinda bored and i had nothing interesting to post.

here's one lame one.

( Yesterday.)

went to school at 8 in the morning.

no one arrived, bored.

tried to sleep back, as i slept lately day before yesterday.

after peoples arrived. started our meeting.

not much to talk for yesterday's meeting because it's our part two meeting as we didn't finished it on our last time.

After meeting, had my breakfast with some of them.

then bought my S1 books, it's way too "early", i know.=.='|

then went back to co room, and there we start our cleaning work.

i'm glad when i'm back, those who wanna went home earlier had cleaned the co room.

and they went home.

take our broom and there we go, clean the stairs and the wall.

Kiki and Sam painted the shoes rack and cupboard.

there're so many bird's shit on the wall.ewwww~

the shit drop to the stairs when we scrub it, then accidentally step on it coz it's so tiny and we're kaki ayam-ing.

loads of fun moments while cleaning,

we sang, we talked, we laughed, we highed.

after cleaning, went to canteen for our high-tea? (wa tan ho)a heavy high-tea. haha.

then go back to co room, start our gossip-ing.

well, we talked loads about girl's stuff, girl's gossip?

then ah siao called hui ling, he said they wanna borrow broom for cleaning the next day.

'eh..borrow us you all de broom eh, tomorrow we want to clean up orh.'

'oh..*hang on.

( 'uii..he want to borrow broom orh.' )

( 'err..tell him RM5 for one.')

' uii..RM5 for one,'

'wah,like that better i go buy myself lha.'

'oh..you go lha.'*ended the conversation.

continued our gossip~~

suddenly.

'eh..how orh them?they want borrow onot de orh?'

'call him lha.manatau them.'

*missed call.

*called back.

'..................hello,the broom you all want borrow onot de orh.'

'of course want lha, but you all............'

'want arh..RM5 for one.'

'wah..like that mea.'

*open loudspeaker. 'ya lha,[ cut off section, can't remember what they talking about.]'

'uii,what you say orh, so noisy eh you there.'

'what orh, you there more noisy lho, we here no ppl talking pun.'

'har....what arh? cant hear orh'

'you there noisy bha. you so big at there, ask your people dont so noisy eh.'

'dont want orh..you say lha.'*opened loudspeaker.

' uii..keep quiet eh..'

*quiet a while.

'you come take lha.' ended the conversation

'Ding Dong~'

'Ding Dong~'

*knocked the door.

*knocked back.

*knocked again.

*knocked back.

*opened the door, 'why you all knock back orh, not suppose to be us knocking de meh.'

' haha. '

'eiyer, siao bha, you knock de lo.' * all laughed.

Sam: 'hui ling, you tell them, the soft de RM5, hard de RM7'

'what soft de hard de orh,'

'eiyer, got two kind of broom de lo'

Sam: ' you tell them the hard the more rude, the soft de more easy.'

* all laughed, our brain is yellow~

so stupid conversation,readers might not understand it,but it's funny for us.haha

lastly, we went home one by one.

[ cleaning those dirt.]

[ how to clean those arh? too high liao.]

[ Ninja Assasin.]

Night, watched Ninja Assasin with mum and bro.

Rain's punya tegap and unbeatable.

and the people's blood in the movie all like water paip, flow so many and fast.haha

That's all for my yesterday. =)

真正愛你的女生. 真正愛妳的男生♥

2009-12-05T15:55:00.001+08:00

真正愛你的女生♥
會叫你猜這個,猜那個,
目的是想要你知道她在想什麼
想錯,她又會罵你【沒事啦!笨蛋】　
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真正愛你的女生♥
是你最需要她的時候,
她又常裝著冷漠不關心,
卻溫柔的問你【沒事吧?】
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真正愛你的女生♥
雖然不知道你喜歡什麼,
也甘願熬夜為你織一條圍巾,
摺一大罐的星星
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真正愛你的女生♥
經常想打電話給你,
卻怕你覺得烦,
要你開口才會打給你.
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真正愛你的女生♥
在朋友面前經常提起你和問你的近況,
卻否認自己喜歡你
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真正愛你的女生♥
因為她太過掛念你,
所以難以入睡
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真正愛你的女生♥
在你面前常毫不在意,
其實她十分想知道你的心意
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真正愛你的女生♥
只要你對她說【我很想妳】
她就會臉紅心跳加速,
然後甜甜的笑,
對你說【笨蛋!你說什麼阿?】
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真正愛你的女生♥
雖然相隔一段距離,
她也會幻想著你和她的未來而傻笑
-
真正愛你的女生♥
無論你傻或笨,
還是會覺得你很酷.
-
真正愛你的女生♥
傷了她的心,
她睡覺前會想起你,
而且不自覺的掉眼淚.
-
真正愛你的女生♥
想告訴你她的心裡話,
但是卻很怕,
因為怕失去你.
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真正愛你的女生♥
很多時候不會叫你的名字,
總會叫你【笨蛋】【豬頭】【喂】
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真正愛你的女生♥
跟你聊天的時候總會把話說的亂七八糟,
因為是對愛的人,
所以她的舌頭打結了.
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真正愛你的女生♥
是每天在電腦前等你上線,
然而一看見你的名字就會不知所措.
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真正愛你的女生♥
當你告訴她有關於其他女生的事情,
她總是一副不關心的樣子,
但心裡卻是酸酸的.
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真正愛你的女生♥
是會在你傷害她之後,
仍然傻傻的在等你.
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真正愛你的女生♥
是會為了你放棄一生幸福的人
這樣愛你的女生會把你無意間的諾言當作誓言,
然而當諾言變成謊言時,
她會默默的等待諾言成為誓言.
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這樣愛你的女生♥
希望你在做錯事或傷害她之後,
要勇於承認,並以實際行動來向她賠不是.
而不是幾句玩笑話一帶而過,
偶爾放下所謂男人的面子,就能溫暖她受傷的心.
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這樣愛你的女生♥
總是告訴你說不要說了,要改,
可是下次還是錯.
因為她容許你偶爾的犯錯,卻不能容許你一錯再錯
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這樣愛你的女生♥
希望你能在她脆弱的時候,
心情不好的時候呵護她在她慌亂無助的時候,
支持她.
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這樣愛你的女生♥
希望你不要總以忙碌為理由,
儘管你口中一直說你愛她但她的心卻真的受傷了,
可是這種傷害你看不到,
你認為自己忙碌的很累,
沒有時間也沒有精力顧及感情,
覺得她應該能體諒你,
所以你對她的情緒感覺無理取鬧,
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其實一個人活在世界上不可能無所事事,
一定會有這樣那樣的忙,
但如果你一直拿這個來說,
請問你什麼時候有時間談戀愛?
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她知道你的忙,
是因為你有能力,
她只希望就算你在忙,
也打個電話或傳簡訊.
哪怕只說一句話或者是一條空白簡訊也好,
至少讓她知道你在幹嘛.
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當初在你不確認她喜歡你,
在意你的時候,
為什麼有大把時間與精力來呵護她?
為什麼她一個簡單的小情緒都那麼牽動你的心?
現在為什麼忙起來就忘記了她的存在?
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要知道她一直覺得"忙"是一個毀滅愛情最危險的信號愛情,
是一種互相幸福和需要的的感覺.
是一種互動和交流.
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這樣愛你的女生♥
為了能永遠和你在一起,
選擇了一條艱苦又荊棘沒有退路的未來之路,
只為不被殘酷的現實阻隔.
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這樣愛你的女生♥
希望你給她真正的安全感,
不一定是婚姻.
而是無論貧窮
還是富有,健康還是疾病,
相愛相依,不離不棄.
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這樣一個愛你的女生♥
傻傻的一個人忍受著跟你失聯的幾天幾夜,
忍受一個人孤單寂寞的幾天幾夜,忍受想念你的幾天幾夜,
為的就是想讓你知道在沒有她的日子裡你會不會也著急難過?
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最後 ,每個女生都是一個天使
當她愛上一個人時,她就會折斷翅膀來到人間.
所以男生們不要傷害身邊,
愛你的女生,
因為她已經沒有翅膀能飛回去了.
♥真正愛你的男生♥

真正愛妳的男生♥
一直把妳的學號或是生日當密碼記著.　
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真正愛妳的男生♥
在他累到不行時，
還是傳了封短信給妳.　
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真正愛妳的男生♥
會在妳忘記回覆他短信時狠狠地說妳一頓.　
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真正愛妳的男生♥　
很少當面讚美妳,
可是心裡肯定妳是他最棒的.
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真正愛妳的男生♥
嘴巴都不甜,
但是他吻妳時能傳遞他剛好的熱情.　
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真正愛妳的男生♥
會老是惹妳生氣,
但妳卻發覺不了他到底錯了什麼.
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真正愛妳的男生♥
不喜歡些小東西,
卻還是把妳送的每個擺在他書桌上.　
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真正愛妳的男生♥
會默默地記住妳不經意說過的話,
在某時某刻重複它們.　
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真正愛妳的男生♥
一下子說不出真正愛妳的理由,
只知道自己並不想注意別人.
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真正愛妳的男生♥
總是叫妳小姑娘,
可是當他做什麼重大決定時,
都想聽聽妳的建議.
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真正愛妳的男生♥
當聽到妳對他講很"酸"的話時,
他總是裝的很正經,
其實心裡很甜很甜.
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真正愛妳的男生♥
只可能在妳一個人的面前流淚,
當妳想為他擦淚時,
其實也擦亮了為妳跳動的心.
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真正愛妳的男生♥
總覺得有些話只說一遍就夠了,
因為妳已經知道他的心,
說了太多,他怕變得不珍貴.
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真正愛妳的男生♥
當妳發脾氣時,
只會不作聲的等妳把火發完,
然後慢慢地說,妳明天有課嗎？
要早點睡.　
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真正愛妳的男生♥
可能不像妳一樣清楚記得某些紀念日,
因為他覺得愛妳的每天都值得紀念,
而不是簡單的數字.　
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真正愛妳的男生♥
如果不能經常見妳,
他會讓自己忙碌起來,
為了不時常想妳,
他總怕一想起後都無法收拾.
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真正愛妳的男生♥
不會輕易做出承諾,
因為他想讓自己成為妳心中說話最算話的男子,
只給妳最保證最安全的幸福.　
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真正愛妳的男生♥
很想很想妳時,
會突然買花送妳,
然後傻傻地等妳,
卻不知道手中的是月季,
沒關係,他心裡送的是玫瑰.
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真正愛妳的男生♥
總會告訴妳別胡思亂想,
因為其實他在為妳規劃最美麗真實的未來,
同時讓妳無憂無慮的等他給的驚喜.　
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真正愛妳的男生♥
當和妳發生爭執時,
總是控制不了的先妥協,
承認"我錯了".
過後,發來個短信以"神經病"開頭,
卻是"寶貝"結尾,
事實上妳也清楚這次有點無理取鬧.
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真正愛妳的男生♥
不懂當妳生氣掛掉電話後應該立即打來,
過了若干小時候會發條短信問妳氣消了沒?
如果妳質問他為什麼那麼久才打來,
他會小心的說,我怕在那樣說下去妳會離開我.
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男生總是拙拙的做每件事情，
但是都拙的很真心,　
女生覺得好有趣,
而男生戰戰兢兢
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女生總會仔細的處理之間事情,
但是時常出差錯,　
害男生好著急,
而女生好擔心好傷心.　
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注意妳愛的他的舉動,
他可能什麼都不會,　
卻還是為了妳拼命做下去.　
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注意你愛的她的舉動,
她可能想的很多,
但始終都是圍繞在為了你的話題.

Morning ♥

2009-12-01T22:44:00.002+08:00

When I hear the bird start singing
I wanna see you
Hoo,hoo,do do do do do...
When I see the leaves start fallin'
I wanna see you
The only thong I'll do
Don't you know
Is to rush and run to you

When I hear the clock start tiching
I start to miss you
Ooh...The only thing I'll do
Is gonna drearn of you

Wanna stay by by by you side
You are my everything
You are my only link
To the angel's wings
Talk about love love and
I can't stop thinking of you
Such a crazy thing
Like snow fallin' in spring

(You know every morning)
When I hear the bird start singing
I wanna see you
Ooh...the only thing I'll do
Is to rush and run to you

When I hear the clock start tiching
I start to miss you
Ooh...The only thing I'll do
Is start to dream of you

I found my angel in my life
I cannot see why
I cannot see why
We can't be in love till we die

Wanna stay by by by you side
You are my everything
You are my only link

Holiday.

2009-11-28T14:19:00.002+08:00

hmm..holiday is just bored for me.

just practice for few days, and some small performance.

i wish i have something to do during this holiday.

i didn't go anywhere, no travelling, no visiting, no nothing.

i didn't go for part time job, mum's lazy to fetch me.

hanging out with friends? i dont know what to do also, no one date me.

hmmm..holiday, holiday, holiday.

that's a great word what.

but i feel like going to school, talking with friends, at least there's something to do.

but when school reopen, i want to have holiday, have time to rest.

di said "this is call 犯贱.." haha..ROFLMAO

aikss...how i wish i had something to do..

this few days, i dont know what happen to me.

i'm crazy, maybe because it's too bored this holiday..

uhm-hmm..i think i started letting go already.

maybe this is what i should do at first..

today onwards, i'll let go step by step.

i'm on my own now.

I still have my friends, my classmates,

my Bot Ji Club,my k family [ Melanie, Ivy, Kenneth, Kah Seng, Sam, Hui Ling jie, Yung jie, Marcella muii, Chee Kang, Kiki, Kah Man muii & Siao muii.]

my precious di.

I still have them.

hmm..although we didn't stick together everyday, at least i have someone there.

thanks to them, i wont let them worry anymore, i did my decision.

I would gently let go, i still have long way to go.

bubye, boy.

take care.

I'll only keep memories.

爱情

2009-11-23T19:36:00.005+08:00

看过别人的部落..

觉得爱情是一个既残忍又美好的东西..

有人为爱牺牲,有人因爱得到幸福..

男的放弃了自己一直喜欢的女生,因为女生的男友是他的兄弟..

如果让我选择,我宁愿放弃被爱的机会,至少这样,大家还是好友,不需要谁为谁牺牲..

选择了其中一方的女生,得到了自己的幸福,也可能忽略了另一个对他好的男生..

在爱情里面,没有谁怪谁,只能怪自己跟对方没有缘分,时间不对..

这样的感情里,看到的是一个人的牺牲,换来两个人的幸福..

爱情,本来就是一种考验..

考验双方如何看待这段感情,如何处理这段感情所面对的障碍..

面对的是我们之间的距离,现实上的距离..

残忍的放弃,对彼此造成伤害,也许只是短暂的,却造成心里的坑..

努力保留着那短暂的回忆,努力让自己想起,只怕因太短暂而忘记..

学习放弃,学习忘记,学习没有你..这些往往比学校的课业来得难..

也只好慢慢的学,直到有人把那坑填回..

那个人也许不会是你,但会努力保持..

你心里的坑,已被身边的人填满了..

也许你选择,让我等待,也许你不知道我在等,也许你以为只是单纯的思念..

但至少,我知道你很好..也心满意足了..

我放弃等待,努力回忆..

暗示

听见星星叹息用寂寞的语气
告诉不眠的云是否放弃日夜
追寻风的动静

心事不停累积变成脸颊的泪滴
你始终没留意我特别在乎你
你却像风一样左顾右盼而行

全世界只有你不懂我爱你
我给的不只是好朋友而已
每个欲言又止浅浅笑容里
难道你没发现我渴望讯息

我应该如何让你知道我爱你
连星星都知道我心中秘密
今夜在你窗前下的一场雨
是我暗示你我有多委屈

心事不停累积变成脸颊的泪滴
你始终没留意我特别在乎你
你却像风一样左顾右盼而行

全世界只有你不懂我爱你
我给的不只是好朋友而已
每个欲言又止浅浅笑容里
难道你没发现我渴望讯息

我应该如何让你知道我爱你
连星星都知道我心中秘密
今夜在你窗前下的一场雨
是我暗示你我有多委屈

我应该如何让你知道我爱你
连星星都知道我心中秘密
今夜在你窗前下的一场雨
是我暗示你我有多么委屈

是我暗示你我有多委屈
你还不懂雨永远不会停

苏州河-薛凯琪

2009-11-21T18:09:00.002+08:00

苏州河- 薛凯琪

我只是渔火你是泡沫
运河上的起落惹起了烟波

我只能漂泊你只能破
念一首枫桥夜泊我再不是我

一刹那的寄托有甚麽结果
帘外骤雨哀悼我们脆弱

爱只是爱伟大的爱情到头来也只是爱
碧空尽的深处谁也不曾存在追怀追怀
还逃不过要置身事外
偶遇而来互相依赖
河上的船儿总不能永不离开
蜿蜒的泡影到底离不开人山与人海
无奈浪淘一浪又一浪
也不过只为一次澎湃

河流上的泼墨模糊了轮廓
你不属我我有甚麽把握

爱只是爱伟大的爱情到头来也只是爱
碧空尽的深处谁也不曾存在追怀追怀
还逃不过要置身事外
偶遇而来互相依赖
河上的船儿总不能永不离开
蜿蜒的泡影到底离不开人山与人海
无奈浪淘一浪又一浪
也不过只为一次澎湃

寒山寺建於云外
依然为世人爱情无奈
凡人沉默的参拜
感情的事只许等待
去的去不明也不白

爱只是爱伟大的爱情到头来也只是爱
碧空尽的深处谁也不曾存在追怀追怀
还逃不过要置身事外
偶遇而来互相依赖
河上的船儿总不能永不离开
蜿蜒的泡影到底离不开人山与人海
无奈浪淘一浪又一浪
也不过只为一次澎湃

那海市蜃楼只是爱

画沙- 周杰伦,袁咏琳

2009-11-19T21:00:00.001+08:00

画沙 - 周杰伦,袁咏琳

午后的风摇晃枝桠抖落了盛夏
我对着蝉认真说话在对你牵挂
玩风琴就是爱瞎闹堆积着无暇
我跟着站在壁沙岸让你放不下

这风景如画院子里画沙
等最美的晚霞等故事长大

用手中的流沙画一个你呀
才说过的永远我们一定不会擦
我的青春开始在喧哗
因为大声说爱你而沙哑

用手中的流沙轻描着你的脸颊
也答应说好的未来全部会重画
许过的承诺我脚步会在期待
因为我爱你呀
挑上脸挑上花有你的记忆干燥成瓶中沙
傻傻的还想着你滴滴答答
擦美丽的指甲喝你泡的茶
原来幸福可以这么优雅

爱过你的风沙我也一样值得你爱
管他风怎么刮管雨就怎么下
回头过去原来别说傻
回头不说一次值得吧
我爱上这泪光问你会不会爱我

这种景如画院子里画沙
等我们的童话等誓言落下

用手中的流沙画一个你呀
才说过的永远我们一定不会擦
我的青春开始在喧哗
因为大声说爱你而沙哑

用手中的流沙轻描着你的脸颊
也答应说好的未来全部会重画
许过的承诺我脚步会在期待
因为我爱你呀
用手中的流沙画一个你呀
才说过的永远我们一定不会擦
我的青春开始在喧哗
因为大声说爱你而沙哑

用手中的流沙轻描着你的脸颊
也答应说好的未来全部会重画
许过的承诺我脚步会在期待
因为我爱你呀

Graduation Day.

2009-11-13T20:13:00.003+08:00

Graduation day today.

bored but meaningful to S3s lha..

Science Stream Qualifying Examination's result out yesterday..

I'm not in the list..among few of us,only fang yu get.

they only need 44 pupil in Science Stream.

i think the elite class is almost half of maybe 80% of them..

then what for they let us take the Science Stream Qualifying Examinations?

after taking the exam, they only let one of the student in each class..

that's something like wasting my RM60.i gain nothing.

I won't go for art stream. Science Stream is my only way to success.

Maybe I'll switch to government school..maybe?

but i heard something by ah mei.

she means that maybe life in government school is not that meaningful or something.

coz we're in private school, we learnt more than government school.

if we switch, we're like learning the same thing again?

"你要你的生活平平淡淡,还是充满精彩..

我希望你说服你父母,让你留下.."

letting go is easy to say, hard to do.

2009-11-12T20:08:00.006+08:00

yesterday night di find me on msn..then he sigh..

don't know what happen,he said will tell me on time.

i guess i know what he wanted to tell, and my guessing is right.

he gave up. maybe it's good for both of them.

the reason's quiet shocking, and nice?

not gonna tell here.

hope he'll be accustomed on his new life.

glad to see he's still fine.

hmm..how about me?idk.

like not so willing to think about anymore.

but my mind wont let me do so.

i'd like to let go, i know i always say so.

everytime i failed, i try to start letting go agian.

but what's the matter?what's in me?

I really can't figure.

I'd promise i'll try my best.

I wish i'll let go by counting on days..

someone save me from that wonderland.

you're the strongest drug ever.

i'll let go slowly,you're fine there.

you would get a better her.

love wont come back to me.

2009-11-11T21:32:00.011+08:00

there's notes in my phone about you.

dates and reminders too.

there's draft that I didn't post in my blog

its about you too.

sometimes i think why would i miss you.

i felt guilty maybe? or i'm just trying to pull back.

i'd cried hard several times,put the blame on myself.

tried to forget about you.

but lastly I've seen your pages.

that's the only way i know how's your living.

since you're there, we lost contact.

you're busy on yours, i'm on mine.

you're happy on your living, i'm glad to see so.

you've your friends taking care of you there,it's time fro me to let go.

I know it's easy for me to say,it's hard to let go.

thought that keep counting on those days would help.maybe?

i dont know.

maybe i really need someone like you.you're special.

maybe to me?

i can't think of why i still love you.

maybe it's like what you asked me last time.

my answer is,

my love for you has no reasons,love comes no one can control, its faith.

now you had people that smile for you.

people that laugh for you.

people that cry for you.

people that share with you.

people you smile for.

people you're depress for.

people you listen to.

I don't have chances for your concern.

others wont know how i feel without telling.you will.

I look like i'm tough, but inside i'm just bleeding.

i'm not that tough, my looks cheated.

i need concern too.

I decided to let go,but I'm sorry.

maybe i need more time to do so.

i won't deny that ~~imissyou.~~

hope you're all well there,

i'll pray for you with all my heart.

I'm Sorry, istillloveyou.

gambling.

2009-11-10T21:46:00.002+08:00

there's still rehearsal today..bored lho..

ask the teacher can go back onot..she say sit and wait till finish war..

then i look at back only few "ants" there..

on the way back,saw Sheena,she's taking her bag to co room..

then followed her there,after breakfast,at co room.nothing to do.

lazy to go back class,more bored.

stayed at co room lur,gamble with them..

limit RM1 highest..haha..funny.

keep changing 'zhuang', chee kang give me de luck good lha..two cards can win him liao..

but Sam keep win me when she's 'zhuang'..

last, Hui Ling 'zhuang', she say no limit war..then i say RM5,she say okay..

first game already so good luck, i tooked double A's,so she paid me triple,woah!*happy

second game, i say RM5 same, she say cannot war,she want win back,then i say okay lur,RM15..last game,i want back class liao ma..okay,deal.

2 cards, 20 points,she open others first, left me and her..then she take cards and there she go, boom!then i say give her promotion, no need pay me back so much..

haha..first time luck so good, can win dao 'zhuang' de money..

tomorrow continue, meet you all in co room, 'gamble ka'..

Farewell Party.

2009-11-08T09:29:00.001+08:00

We're having performance in the hall today for the educational fair..

Several of Senior 2 and 3 students were there taking informations about the college or university they wanted to have their further study.

We're in black shirt and trousers and a vest,it's damn hot there, they didn't on the air-con.

We're like erhmm..background music..we don't have mic,and it's so soft that nobody pay attention on us.

after the performance for 1 hour plus..we went back to CO room as we're having a farewell party for Senior 3 there..

Firtsly, it's the priest and guan yin..it's something like a entertainment..

After that, we're having a song we wrote for Senior 3..

actually we just changed the lyrics lha..

while singing, loads of' em cried so hard, but my tears wont allow me too..still dry..

and that's the section, after teacher giving her talk, it's Senior 3's turn..they just talk a lil..

Suddenly,our head leader said masuk baris, she said it's the last time for those Senior 3.

after keluar baris, all members line up to hug the Senior 3..that's the time tears came down.

First, Lai Yoke, hugged her.

Second, Peter, hugged him and he said '明年华乐靠你咯,加油哦!' after he said like that, my tears fall like raining heavily..that's so touching..

Third, Melanie, hugged her, she's the one who helped me in this year's concert, she teached me a lot..she said '作么你哭哦?明年就要看你的哦..不要哭'..you know..when someone asked you not to cry, you'll cry more hard..

Lastly, Xing Ya, hugged her, she's still like making people smile, like she always did..

after that went back to our sit, then they suggest to take a group photo, all cry till the eyes like been beaten..

after the group photo, teachers went continue doing their job, and it's our crying time.

while people stop crying already, Hui Ling go kacau people and say something like 'uii Eileen,明年就是我的最后一年了哦,我明年年尾就走咯..'

she go kacau ppl like that made people cried again..

then i dont want to mix with them liao, keep let me non-stop crying.

so, i changed place and sit in front with other people..

I thought it would be better, then the Peter also so bad, he keep said '加油哦!加油哦!' like that,make dao people cry again..

then Hui Ling and Siao come and sit with me,the Hui Ling kacau me lagi,keep say she also want go liao..Siao cry dao more cham..

then while Hui Ling talking with other people, Peter suddenly said 'uii,如果等下我驾车出去的时候给车撞死了,我就真的走了的咯..'

Siao and me terus cry so hard, then only he said he kidding only..but also cant simply say de mha..choi!

after the farewell section, Bot Ji Club went to centre, watch the Jennifer's Body.

not so scary lur, it's a bit boring lha.

after that went home, thought of wanna watch "Let's Dance", who knows it changed the program's time.made me keep on waiting..

then lastly when to bed, too tired.

Tears loved me today.

Tired of crying.

Last day of SSQE.

2009-11-06T19:58:00.002+08:00

Last day of Sciend Stream Qualifying exam.

today is BM and English paper.

BM..err...okay?

the English is something like Science lho..

those questions are about Science de..answer also..

where got like that de orh..main buyuk

after exam, rush to CO room meet jie and mui them..

step into CO room, they all gambling,so happy..me exam..T__T

then go have breakfast lur..

after breakfast,there's a gathering in CO room..

many ppl late arrive,teacher so ke lian, still need to wait..

then actually they wanna vote, they choose 5 people among all members.

Candy, Hui Ling, Kiki, Chee Kang and me..all people need to vote..but 5 of us cant.

woah..so nervous lur..dont know why they choose me..

lastly, result's out..=X

aikss..really hope can in Science Stream next year.

I don't wanna switch school bha, but i don't want art stream.

I want Science Stream!! T_T

hope Science Stream Qualifying Exam can help me.

tomorrow is Senior 3's farewell party in the afternoon..

they had programs i'm not so sure..

sure cry till the whole school building earthquake..ROFLMAO..

hope it's a nice farewell tomorrow..

我真的受伤了

2009-11-02T21:36:00.005+08:00

我真的受伤了-王菀之

灯光也暗了音乐低声了

口中的棉花糖也融化了

窗外阴天了人是无聊了

我的心开始想你了

电话响起了你要说话了

还以为你心里对我又想念了

怎么你声音变得冷淡了

是你变了是你变了

灯光熄灭了音乐静止了

滴下的眼泪已停不住了

天下起雨了人是不快乐

我的心真的受伤了

电话响起了你要说话了

还以为你心里对我又想念了

怎么你声音变得冷淡了

是你变了是你变了

灯光熄灭了音乐静止了

滴下的眼泪已停不住了

天下起雨了人是不快乐

我的心真的受伤了

Mimpian Jadi Trip.

2009-11-02T20:53:00.004+08:00

it's 1st day of November. Welcome November!

wake up at 7 in the morning, it's time to gather, still so sleepy.

after gathering, all went up to the bus, sleep on the bus, really so tired bha..

tuu lha, yesterday midnight still wake up talk talk talk. xP

after arriving, we put our bags and stuff in the Karaoke room which i

s reserved for us..

went to the dont-know-what-place, coloured our batik, so ugly..

then we went to the beach for walk, totally crazy, keep on jumping to take photos..

jump till tired and it's getting hot, we went back to the place, we did a nothir thing.

me and hui ling jie cooperate and do something like vas

e?so

ugly also, keep cacat only..lousy one.

went back to the Karaoke room for our lunch and rest.they give us 2 hours time.

while waiting for the food, they sang loadsa song, yung sing dao so nice, can be singer li

ao!woah!

then we went for outdoor games arranged by Hui ling and Melanie.

i just went out then they tell me, my face de skin peeled off liao..got a bit 'la la' like that..T_T

got few groups, my group is Me, Kiki, Siao, and shen ling.

1st game, the chair de.cant even heard the music. left few ppl then i didn't sit dao.they want to pour water to ppl, hui ling didn't pour dao me,keep run!! but at last melanie go take another pail water pour me..1st game then get wet..cham..but Kiki help our group win liao..^^

2nd game, something like race, spin 8 rounds then run to a

ther group member and pass.our group got 2nd.

3rd game, eat! i ate orange,they eat junk food, apple and a bottle of sarsi..this one 4th.

4th game, go dig the sand till 30cm long and wide..only can use

one hand, like *** lho..

last game, use newspaper make clothes for a group member and catwalk. all sexay! Chee Kang and Ritchie in girls clothes..Ritchie is so sexay!miao~ and he won!!

we're all wet for those game's punishment except the three organiser, we all go take water and pour at them, like at out house..haha

changed our clothes, rest, dinner.

after dinner, we wrote wishes on three dont-know-what w

ishing thing and let it fly up to the sky..

got one burn liao coz the tree make dao..pity..

lastly, back by bus too,too tired,slept in the bus..

ah mei, Ivy, Sam, and loads of them infront keep laughing form Tuaran to KK..

so crazy, they're laughing of ah mei, when the bettle stick on the shirt, her funny act made them laugh like hell..LMAO..really funny if you saw!

few photos only, didn't take dao many..

[ sunset.nice]

[hands.]

[feets.]

others on my facebook album.=)